Grounded Again....

GODDAMMIT.....Fucking MotherFucking, What The Fuck?
I go out to bum a cigarette, and play xbox up the street and the whole world falls apart.
I come back and the doors are all locked, and i knock on the window and my sister lets me in.
I'm now grounded for two weeks, and that Fucking SUCKS big time, and it looks like i'mma quit smoking on the bright side...
and on the suckish side, i was supposed to go see my babygirl...next week....
and i'm still kicking my ass over that, every two fucking seconds, i'm thinking i could be there soon, now i'mma hafta fucking wait.
i'm just hoping she'll forgive me for being sucha dumbass...
wow, domino effect people.

listening: A Dream Is A Question You Don't Know How To Answer - Jonny Craig (OMFG<3)
watching: Doogel, The Incredible Hulk, House, Seinfeld.
(yeah i'mma have no life for two weeks)

Really?

I've Been Sitting Here, Noticing I Haven't Been Doing Much With MY Life Lately At All.
I mean, with Kara, everything is about perfect, other than the distance, she is EVERYTHING i want in a girl, a girlfriend, and she has what i want for maybe the rest of my life
Since I Haven't Updated Anyone On These Topics At All.
Vacation was amazing, and i count Vacation as going up to Kara's in Michigan and Going Down To Hilton Head.
Kara's was AMAZING, i think we became attached to each other in 4 days than we did the whole relationship.
Hilton Head was perfect, just what i needed, beaches, alcohol, and family.
Now i'm back home, and i've just gone over some thought changes, i guess it's just growing up a little more, happens every year around this time.

Idk, what's got me out there in the mind, last night had a SHITload of beer, and smoked most of my cigs, but i've been training myself not to need as much anyways.
love fucking jason bolland and dj bonus.

listening: Happiness - Dance Gavin Dance
watching: Directions, A Visual Compellation to The DCFC album Plans

lovelovelove
<3kara.

mhmm

Letsee, Basically, Life is Great.
and that's all i hafta say,

so i was sitting here,,

warped tour tommorrow =]
excited about that.
i'm just worried about my gf, because she means the world and everything in it to me,
i love her to the moon and back, times around the world 839572395 times and then plus infitity.
i never thought i could love as much as i do.
i never thought i could care as much as i do.
and she's hurting now, and i can't do shit about it.
and it's killing me inside.
because i tihnk she's so amazing.
i could spell it out for you,
head to toes:
i love her long messy hair, it suits her and it bring out her eyes.
i love her forehead, because it's insanely kissable
i love her eyes, they're so breathtaking, and i love hazel
i love her nose, it's also kissable =]
i love her cheeks because i always squeeze them and she makes an adorable face
i love her lips, to be frank, she's a great kisser.
i love her neck (i got vampire on it)
i love her tits, do we even need to explain?
i love her stomach, kissable again =]
i love her in general.
and it's not just physically.
i love her free-spirited soul and her independent mind, even though she says she tones down her indepence because she feels dependent on me =]
I love how down to her she is, and how logical her mind works, how we don't real fight, we just talk about things and work it out. i love that she's real and can be a bitch, i need that in my life. i just can't say enough about her.

but i'm done with my little rant.

i don't want this bliss to ever cease.
i want to keep you till the very end
our love never to release.
i just want to depend on
you.

wow.....

i've had an amazing two weeks of vacation.
it's been wonderful
i've learned alot and grown
it's a wonderful life right now

dear world, i am departed.

not actually dead, nor will i be for a time.
i'm just leaving for two weeks.
so sinora

ehhh ha

ehhh well it's been a bit since i had a meaningful blog, but that's just because i'd rather use my mind sober. had another crunk night, refused today, just need a relaxing one, though i do love shelbakins and princess matty (lmfao) and uncle gio it's just today i felt like being sober.







I'm really digging this picture, it just makes me think of summer so well.
I have a couple others on my other blog (inallthingsbeautiful.blogspot.com)


since my ipod is hell knows where i've been only listening to the radio and music on my computer and it's annoying as fuck.
I'm missing the last night of st.pats, (like i really attended the first two, i just got plastered haha)
well there's always tommorrow!

listening: The Dear Hunter - Acts I & II

Score!

got obliderated last night (ha it was epic) drove around, got some bud, got a bottle of calico, sat in a random girls house from mcdonald (my ex was creepin AH) and got TRASHED.

talking to phatj(yesbc13) and we're smokin at warped.
SCORE

leavin for st.pats

just 4 more days

today was weird, i woke up with a HACK and was spitting straight mucus, and then lazed around all day. played some pokemon (kara's fault) watched house all afternoon (I FUCKING LOVE HOUSE) did nothing else really, cleaned my room, my brother was out more than me? (weird) talked to my baby alllllllll day <3 only four more days till i see her =]

listening: juturna - circa survive
watching: aladin xD

real.

i hafta get something out, seriously people, if you don't like me, don't talk to me, don't make me think you're my friend because seriously it's a waste of yours and my time, tell me shit straight up, i'm not a child i can take it and if i'm really cocky? deal, but i'm fucking not. i'm content with my self and if you aren't stop taking hits on me, it's fucking bullshit and i'm tired of fakes, i'm real, sorry.

woke up, at like 5:32 this morning, still in my twilight gabbed a lipton green tea and woke up with it in my bed wonder what the fuck?
left round 2, that bullshit with the bong is still going on so stayed away from dugan and bonus and cory and niki.
chilled with nick kov and travis for a bit, they left (assholes)
stuck with twinkie and mary and deven
met up with nose and jay, freestyled.
what the fuck is up with ex's and fucking with you.
it's fuckign annoying as shit
i just wanna be with my babygirl
what the fuck is going on?
goddamn haha
i love my kara <3 so much

listening: lover, the lord has left us - TSOAF
reading: nothing
watching: something we rented, not sure yet

today, what have i done?

woke up at 12:04, climb on the roof in gym shorts (my roof is right out my room window) lit a cigarette, wondered about the day. went downstairs, talked it out with my dad, the rest of my family was at kennywood, ditched, great.
stay on the computer till around 3 something, my dad took me out to cbg,
chilled with grizzno,
chilled with the cbgk (ew)
chilled wth matty<3 and kaylah <3
and jerry and alex and DJ
=]
got drven home =]


listening: wiz khalifa-flight school
reading: the city of ember
watching: the dark knight

ehhhhhh today wasn't so great.
all i gotta say summer ain't turning out so cool

New Blog!

I created a new blog, mainly for artistic use, because i want to let myself out more artistically.
the link is -> inallthingsbeautiful.blogspot.com, i'll update you on here when i make something new

MY first day of summer

Goddamn, Today has been, ehhh.
I was woken up at 8:26 (i specifically remember) by my brother telling me we were riding down to my dad's (old remember, he's a douche bag alcoholic and my uncle fired him) work, so i seriously, ran out of my house, bare foot, lit a cigarette, and ran, it's the fucking first day of summer, i'm not dealing with this shit.
i realize, i'm not going to have a great summer if i keep running, (and my feet hurt)
i wanna see my baby, i wanna party, i wanna have fun.
So I come back, only to confront my mom and tell her i don't wanna go, and present a reasonable proposition to her, only to be refused.
I flip shit...
my dad comes in grabs me, shoves me into a wall, i match his grip
(Dad)"Don't talk to your mother like that!"
(Me)"I don't care!"
"this is your fault!"
(Dad)"My fault?"
(Me)"yes it's yours, your a piece of shit father!"
(My Mom)"Let Go Of Each Other"
(I've Collasped, crying, my dad is fucking big)
(Dad) I'll Never Forgive You, No One Has Ever Talked To Me Like That"
"I'll Never Forgive You"
then i talk to my mom for fifteen minutes
and we leave for 10 fucking hours.
and i just got back
Today Was the worst first day of summer.

i'm scared right now, well absolutely terrified.
this could be the end, but your the best thing that has ever happened to me.

Proxies Are Bomb

ha haven't done this in a while, =p
bloggin from school?
shittt mayne ahahaha.
well i'm exhausted and since it's the last full day this year
i thought i'd say farwell to this year while i can, i grew so much this year
and i thank everyone for that.

i don't know what's gonna go on for the rest of today. just chillin

listening: circa survive

Califone, I Love You, But Your Singing Sinatra Again

I LOVE this SONG ^

hahah i also loved today, school should be THIS easy everyday
watch movies and take easy quizes, forrealz i'mma fucking find a retarded school =p

Today I Decided To Make Another Mixtape,
Well Actually Yesterday I Did.
but after rapping with jarell and storme today i thimnk i'mma do it
and spittin for kookie.
in dedication i tink i'mma name the mixtape "JeepCruis'n"


listening: Dedication 2 & 3 - Weezy F Baby; Avalon - Anthony Green
watching: The Patriot

Looking Back For Once

Wow i've just pondered how i've grown over the year, and i'm proud of myself, i'm learning to let go of things i didn't know i could, i'm just growing up i guess haha,
just all this shit i've went through all this year drives me insane, and makes me exstatic at the same time, i don't know, at the end of it all, i am content. I just hope this summer will be just as wonderful

I don't understand

i feel like i've screwed up something.
just the way you acted to me tonite, i feel as if i did something wrong
it was awkward, it's NEVER awkward, this is gonna bother me =/
jeez i need to see you soon, my dad needs to get his truck so this can happen =]

day was iight,
school was empty, seniors are gone,
blew off most of my classes.
went crusin with jenkins, burns and bonus (again haha)
ended up at the new cyber cafe
came off, ate,
recorded
had the awkward coversation, which worries me.
need a cigarette, so i'm out

listening: wiz khalifa - flight school
watching: starsky + hutch

Chillin, Chillin

So another day another dollar i guess.
if i had a dollar for everyday i lived i still wouldn't have much
which reminds me i need a job,
days are passing by like sand through and hourglass.
i miss her terribly =/ i can't wait to see her in TWO WEEKS =]
i have no clue what we're gonna do, i just wanna be wih her.
my brother got a phone, and i still don't have one. WTF?
i mean c'mon i'm pissedd.
i'm also pissed about my dad being home, seriously, i'm so angry at him and what he's done.
Like seriously, if your gonna wasted your life away getting wasted and sleeping go for it.
I've found myself smoking weed more than drinking as a result.
Pens got obliderated, last night, (thanks kara, rub it in)
eric can't watch anymore =p BAD OMEN
Carson's Party, iight, i mean jen, cort and raven dragged me out to go somewhere else, got a lil stoned and came back and rapped for everyone and it was beast.
i don't know what to do with myself right now.
i hate this feeling.

They Be On My Stick, But I'm Not Harry Potter

Damn I Love Blunt Cruisin with Cory Burns and Jason Bonus.^^^









Faygo Twist, WOW



Jesus, Mr. Cap Is LEAVING =///
I'm SO JEALOUS THAT THEY DID THE JAGGERZ URGH
















MRCAP =//^^^^

best middle school band teacher ever.

hahah he's the shit


Did I Tell you, how much i miss my baby girl??
Very MUCH, i mean it seems like i love her more everyday. =]


Listening: Wiz Khalifa - Flight School; Mew - Discography; Lil Wayne - Dedication 2
Watching: The Pens, Fail.

With Great Maturity Comes...?

so i realized today, that the more mature i get, the more boring life gets.
doing yard work? for once? ahahaha wow, i am just becoming a difference.
i'm still a bit injured about my father, he was moved to a local hospital (according to my mother, again) from West Virginia. My Uncle, His Parter in their business, fired him, so there goes my raise in allowance, well Mike will give me a job down there.
i realize day after day, how much important your becoming to me, and how much i'm falling for you, and how much i want to be with you, and i miss you so much.
I NEED A MOTHERFUCKING IPOD WITH MORE SPACE AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH =/
i ALSO need 200$ to record this new ep.
i also need some weed in my pipe, this shit with my dad is pissing me off.

Listening: Mew - Frengers
Watching: House

Darling, I Can't Control My Thoughts.

Today was an alrite day,
but not at the same time.

i'm okay, now broken ribs, no fractures.
My dentals shit is great.
I'm getting my hair all spiffy

BUT

My dad is an alcoholic, and i just found out.
My girlfriend is depressed and i don't know why.
and i wanna make her happy, so much, but right now i don't know how
i know i won't turn out like nathan or her dad, i just wanna be the best boyfriend ever.

i've been writing more acoustic stuff, for Brandon Christian and I to do together, idk when we're getting together.


Listening: Mew - Frengers (ITS THE SHIT)
Watching: Family Guy
Reading: The City of Ember?

it's hard as fuck to breathe right now.
but it's getting easier, my bruises are healing
whatever, pens lost again
i miss my babygirlll =/ <3
summer needs to come now.
i made a rap about nature for science =p
hilton head june 28-july 5,
i better see gigi and roy, i miss them
i need cigarettes, i'm gonna get in more trouble tommorrow =p
me and zach need to chill more.
fuck random thoughts hahaha =]
baby i love you<3

Listening: Jkizzle Stuff; Enter Shikari, Shwayze
Watching: Die Hard (YIPPIE CIYAI MOTHAFUCKA)
Reading: Goddamnnnnn I need books.

i love, my girlfriend, hockey - even though we lost, and just today, i'm still a lil banged up, but i'll be iight.

i realized people bitch about things that have already happened, instead of dealing with it and moving on.

fucking wow, i'm just in a shitty mood huh?
not as bad as it's gonna be on sunday, no cigarettes that day
i'm stuck at home, injured, and either way, no one will care enough to fucking brong me cigs.
my gf is stoned as shit, and i mean that's okay, i'm just worried about her because i care, and by the sound of her friends i don't want her to rub off on that life style of smoking everyday, to me smoking is a once in a while thing,
i'm just scared she'll change and not wanna be with me anymore....
my head hurts, my shoulder hurts, my left ribs hurt, my mom is yelling at me about shit, and it makes no sense,
i wanna get out, but i'm scared.

Just.....wow

So i was a lil fucked up last night, and apparently i fell OFF MY FUCKING ROOF =[
i blacked out after that i guess because i woke up in my bed, unknowing what the fuck had happened, feeling sick as shit and half my body hurt. Went to school, called my mom, came home, on the ride home i was enlightened of this incident, not by striaght telling me, but by questioning. I'm really fucking scared right now..

=]]

I Don't Know why I'm so content, i just am =]
seriously i'm the happiest i've been in a while
i have someone i can be with, for a very long time or longer.
and just the fact that she not only loves me, she appriciates me, wants to be with me.
and everything about that.
my grades are doing well, aced 2 finals in a row!
YEAH NIGGUH!
recording and recording =]
making a cover of disturbia by rihanna sounds pretty nice.
jamming out to random music.
yeahhh! i'm just pumped, i need to shower and sleep hahaha

listening: wiz khalifa - flight school; copeland - good morning sunshine; dance gavin dance - happiness; death cab for cuite - plans
watching: eternal sunshine of the spotless mind

Exhausted, Excited, Eradicated, Epic Randomness?

Exhausted:
had to march today, stayed up late talking to kara<3, and had to wake up 5 hours after, get into the band uniform, drink a monster (didn't help) march a mile in the heat, and go home and do chores until i had to leave.
Excited:
I am finally writing the jkizzle ep, if i can't get the money to record in a studio, i'm downloading sony acid pro and i'mma fuck with that until it sounds right, orgasmix sounds pretty nice right now, i have a nice ass song coming out, hoping my cuz and marc will do it with me.
Eradicated: I smoked At 3:30, and it's almost 9 and i'm still fucked up, i sleep in someone's car, ate 3 reese's cups king size, a full box of pizza, a monster, a 2 liter of mtn dew, a pepsi and some kool aid.
Epic Randomness: I'm gauging my ears out to 9/16's, I want to read more books, i just saw autumn's bf today, alone (ted) and it was so awkward because he thinks i'm trying to get win one of my oldest friends? (hahahahah) i have an amazing, wonderful girlfriend, her name is kara markee, she is all i could ever ask for.

Listening: Relapse - Eminem, 21 Centry Breakdown - Green Day (Fail, nothing New), Happiness - Dance Gavin Dance, Jkizzle Rough Mixes.
Watching: Currently Pirating Eternal Sunshine
Reading: LIBRARY TOMMORROW =D
Loving: Kara Nicole Markee, she's my babygirl, 5.16.09. <3

I guess, i did something right.

telling the truth, fucked some shit up,
and i shouldn't have lied.
but, i don't have a cloud over my head,
and i got some sort of forgiveness.
i mean, things are gonna be a little different
but the connection is still there =]
and i'm exstatic about that.
like so happy.
i mean, i've gotta work my ass off for you now
but i guess i'm willing to do that.
i'm done with the past me,
i want you to help create a new me.

if i could take it all
and put it in reverse,
i'd take back the lies that i said,
words i regret,
tears coming down like sweat
face is wet,
heart lies in a state of undetermined
is it over yet?
are we done or are there gonna
be shards of what went wrong?
this is too long i feel so isolated
frozen in a time of where i feel like shit
what's withholding me?
why do i fuck up?
it's the cost of love
i guess.
the stress i put on myself
will bury me, until i look like someone else.
through and through again?
this cycle will never end.
i want you, i love you more than a friend
time that take to heal,
will continue like a car's spinning wheels
not moving though.
in this rotation till she chooses to forgive or cut me out
i'm gonna stand with my head down
a lie i deviesd to keep her,
so scared that i would be alone.
i don't know.
i don't care.
i miss her, i miss her here.
i wish that i could take back
any single doubt,
but even if we repaired it,
it would never be the same
she'll think i'm playing the same game.
lies and deceit aren't apart of me.
just a mistake i keep locked up.
damn she was the only one i wasnted to spend my time
press my luck, be with past when we grew up.
but i guess i fucked up.

Fuck Me I Hate Myself.

Why am i acting so immature and paranoid?
is it i want more attention?
am i just jealous?
is it because i'm lying?
fuck fuck fuck me.

i hate this, i hate myself, i feel like crying again


i love you...

Up Late Yet Again

Damn, I'm exhausted, i didn't do anything today.
Not True

I woke up like 8 times this morning and finally ragged my ass out of bed.
Spent 2 Hours Working On My song Orgasmix.
released the cbg mixtape.
Went to The pool, talked to Roger (The Most Kickass Mtherfucking Italian 60 Year old ever) and Mr.B (Old Friend's Dad)
Came Back and finished orgasmix.
My computer Froze ans erased it.
Almost blew up the computer.
rerecorded the rerecording, it sounds beast
talked to kara all day <3
ate chinese food
watched the dark knight.
wished i would went out.

Listening: Relapse - Eminem, Mozart Season's EP (Too Tired To find The title)

lovelovelove

Alone on A Friday Night.

Pshhh Chyeah, I'm Pathetic Man, I can't stand a week without you, how am i suppossed to stand this whole relationship?

This Week Has been, uneventful, just finished up my mixtape, 14 jkizzle tracks that are demoish and sound kinda nice, i love them because i made them, but i hate them at the same time, y'know?

I need to get fucked up more often, I cut down alot, and i think i'm going through withdrawl, and it suckssss!

Haven't been going out much either, nothing entertains me, i'm so used to what goes on, that i want something, different, something new, i guess.

I find myself listen to more rap, because of the jkizzle project, so i've pulled up a buncha my favorite music, to distract myself from it. Lydia, B182, Dance Gavin, Anthony, Chiodos, Even pulled up Some Hawthorne Heights, getting back in the day when i used to adore them. Fucking Righteous thenew TDWP album and can't wait for Circa's and actually Brokencyde's it's gonna be a fail in the industry's eyes, BUT, who doesn't love to get down everyonce in a while?

i wrote a rap with the title of my blog in it =p

Listening: Lydia, Circa Survive, Death Cab for Cutie, Owl City
Watching: Truman Show
Reading: Need To Go To The Library.

lovelovelove

Wow it's been a while

i haven't been posting, i guess it's because of the lack of excitement in my life,
i wake up, smoke a cigarette, go to school, come home, record, do homework, talk to my gf and go to sleep.
oh yeah, i have a gf.
kara nicole markee <3
haha she came down from flint and spent the weekend with me
saw x-men origins, wolverine it was the shit
fucking will.i.am and ryan reynolds
hahaha it was amazing
haven't been goin out much, unless i can smoke weed, or i hafta get cigarettes.
damn i miss my old life.

ehh it's whatever.

URGH.

Yeah, As I Thought, Fuckit FUCKIT, I'm out of DS too, goddamnit can't i do anything right?
jesus that means i lost that whole group. that WHOLE FUCKING GROUP OF FRIENDS.
urgh..

Keeping To Myself.

Idk everything seems sooooooooo boring nowadays,
i kinda just keep to myself and not interupt other's lives.
i feel like i'm intruding and i feel out of place.
i need something new.

I feel like, i'm losing it again

I spent the weekend, alone, at my grandparents, getting stoned off my ass,
all i did, was smoke weed, eat, watch nickelodion, or the disney channel or check my myspace.
Also got rejected by my cousin a couple of times, jeez. i feel like everyone is growing away from me, i got ripped by a good friend on a weed hookup. which absoultely pissed me off, and i think someone stole my black rims yesterday. Urgh, dicks. I'm being constantly, uninvited to things, i think i'm losing chris reed and that crew, ever since the sibling fell through, i've been falling farther behind. I even think i'm out of define sanity. Idk i need a new set of friends, a new experience. BEN GARDNER WE NEED TO CHILL, hahahaha.
Thoughts like these remind me why i stay sober anymore.


OHHHHHHHHH
100% FORGOT,
5 more days till i see kara =]<3
i love you baby =]



Asher Roth - Asleep In The Bread Aisle
Jamie Foxx - Intution
Happiness - Dance Gavin Dance
Working on Orgamsix EP - Jkizzle

Just Because, You Move Your Lips, Doesn't Mean That You Exist.

Beat Up As All Hell.

Okay So The Concert Last Night Was In Face, Epic As All Hell.
Attack Attack! and I See Stars were unavailable because AA!'s drummer has swine flu and ISS' singer was coughing up blood. (I hope they all get better) But The Sets Were Awesome. I'll Try To Describe DGD's

Alex English
Me and Zoloft Get Along Fine
Shyhook
Tree Village (New Song, But it's Debuted On Their Myspace)
Buffalo
New Song(I Think It Was "I'm Down With Brown Town" I Love Leaks)
Uneasy Hearts Weigh The Most
Rock Solid
The Robot With Human Hair pt.3

Idk Much of A Skylit Drive's but i know they played.

And All It Takes For You Dreams To Come True...
Eva The Carrier
Wires....And The Concept OF Breathing

It Was Insane I'm Not Gonna Lie, Will Swan Really Pulled Out For Me and Perry.
I hung out with Will Swan (FUCKING YES) and Kurt Travis (OMFG FUCKING YES)
Met Coy La Quay, (Fuck Yeah Man, Fuck Yeah) Jag, (Small As FUCK, Huge Hugs) Joey Wilson (Dude I Don't Know You But Let's Drink) and Brian White (He Got Hit With A Fruit Snack lmfao) of A Skylit Drive. I also met Matt Mingus (He Was Obliderated, We;re The Majuana? IN MY LUNGS) and Zac Garren (I almost bitched him out because i didn't know who he was) of Dance Gavin Dance.

It Was Wonderful!!

Then I Spent Today, Wanderng Around My House with my aching neck, back and head, and i recorded a new song with my friend shock d it sounds beast And managed to go all day with 3 cigarettes and 2 rolled ones.

Ben got Me a leak of happiness, by dgd and it's epic as shit.


Happiness - Dance Gavin Dance. (EPIC)
Asleep in the Bread Aisle - Asher Roth (Impressive, I'll Keep My Love For Him)
Tillthewheelsfalloff - Dot Dot Curve :) (Disspaointing)

Don't Tell Me That I'm Ordinary,

Today Was Kinda That Way.
Went To Church, My Brother Got Confirmed, Happy Moment of The Day.
Talked To Ben Alot During Church, Before During and After, Watched Him Skate Around.
Prob Playing With Music With Him Next Week For Some Youth Stuff.
Tryina Hang With Some Different People, I'm Tired Of The Same Ones.
Went Home.
Had A Big Talk With My Mom About Dad, and how he's anit-myfamilyandit'sreligon
Sucked.
Ate At Olive Garden (Chicken Parmesean =])
Went To The Grent's
Checked Out The Jkizzle Page, I've Had Almost 1,000 Plays in One Weekend
Talked To Some Small Time Artists,
Gonna Collab With X X Robots Rawr, Mizz B.I.S. and L3to
Wanting To do My Acoustic Project Terribly (YEAH DANNY AND BEN!!!)
Define Sanity Needs A Band Practice.
I Need Cigarettes
Watched Bedtime Stories (Disney + Adam Sandler)
Talking to Kara<3
About To Release This Week's Playlist =]

Listening: Dance Gavin Dance - Self Titled
Watching: Bed Time Stories
Recording The CBG MIXTTAPE (Screamo/Hip Hop)

It Gets Easier As It Goes

I Woke Up At Like 1:30 Today, Usually I Can Get Myself Up Earlier, but today, fail.
This Grounding Thing, Is Not As Hard As I Thought, But That's because i've been spending my time all on my jkizzle project (myspace.com/jkizzlefoshizzle) and i've busted out, around 12 tracks, and am working on a mixtape, which i have 7 tracks for (planning on 12-15) But I Just Watched an Amazing Movie (Seven Pounds) Check It Out, another wonderful movie.

Nothing Much Has Been Going On, Been A Boring Person.

Where Is My Record Player?

Lmfao Benjamin and his Videos hahaha.
Today was pretty good, not gonna lie,
i'm getting used to staying home and not doing shit.
My Grades Have All Gone Up?
I've Been Writing More Music?
I Recorded Three Jkizzle Songs.
(Yeah I Discarded The Hiatus)
I've Been Expressing Me, Because I Actually Have Time To.
Been talking to old Friends, and Making New Relationships.
It's All Good.

Listening: Nothing Much, I've Been Recording All Afternoon
Watching: About To Watch Seven Punds (Will Smith)

Sleepless, Insomnia?

I realized, that my nightly routines are in a rut, and so are my morning and school, i feel as though i'm trapped in a repeat of a few clips of my life, happening over and over again with little intricate alterations.

I also see that i have major troubles sleeping, and right now i want a cigarette terribly, but i just bought them today and there's no way I'm smoking half my pack when i need to make them last through my grounding.

I miss kara, very much, she gets more amazing everyday and i feel as though i'm falling for her more everytime we talk, It makes me feel like I wanna put my life together so i can be with her.

Had a normal conversation with my mother today? and it wasn't awkward, We talked about my employment (MCDONALDS lmfao) my school, getting a fucking new goddamn motherfucking phone. (Yes it's a very strong conversation) Seeing Kara, and Me watching my sisters when she's gone on vacation with my aunts and my grandma

Listening: Owl City - Maybe I'm Dreaming
Watching: What's Eating Gilbert Grape (Johnny Depp)

Jeez, I think i write in here because i'm bored and stuck at home.
I'm so happy with my schedule next year, i'm taking music theory to further conceive my skills as a musician, and prob some small jazz emsembles, even choir for a bit, yes i'm taking choir hahaha.

I realized, how boring things have got lately, i think it's pre-summer boredom, five more weeks of school? yes fucking righteous, but seriously, nothing fun goes on anymore, and i'm kinda missing out on it, i wanna go do more musical things, and have fun, and make some of my own and get out there, but my current works are fail [jkizzle, allbutyou, The Sibling (got replaced)]Define Sanity Might Start Working Together again we havent had a practice since late feb/early march and I miss chillin with Chris and Regis haha (More Chris lmfao)


Idk, everything's been different since the cruise.

Listening: Mozart Season - Apotheosis and Owl City - Maybe I'm Dreaming.

gotta type this while i remember it.

Tongues Taste Like Nicotine.
My Dream Girl Is Breaking Me.
The Room Reeks Like Alcohol,
Doors Slam Right Down The Hall.

Cigarette Stains, More Like Burns.
My Apartment Is Overturned.
Falling Asleep While My Alarm Goes Off.
Fuck This...

A Reprise? Two Times? This Time, Burn It To The Ground.

Today i Realized how small peoples retrospect of the world is, and how they keep all their focus on themselves and their small clique. Because human nature hates being uncomfortable at any cost, so they find their comfort spot and become oblivious to anything that bothers them, unless it comes right in their face, and then, they freak out. I catch myself slipping into that from time to time, but usually something will mentally click and I'll wake myself up and out of it.

Like For Example: A Twisting Movie to Make You Think or, Natural Scenery that just grasps you, or thoughts that you don't wanna think about.

That Reminds Me, Being Comfortable, Something I Know I Wish I Could Feel, but don't you ever get that feeling when your thinking about how like the universe was created and like, you just start debating things in your head and you feel absolutely small and worthless and scared? Yeah, i hate that.

listening: The Dear Hunter Acts I and II
Watching: Eternal Sunshine of The Spotless Mind (3rd time in 3 days lmfao)

lovelovelove

Another Day, Another Dollar.

Today Was Fast, yet Boring, Nothing Exciting Happened, Usual Day.
Walked in, Conversed, Bullshitted My Way Through a Few Periods, Lunch, 7th period (Naptime - English) Fire Drill, Band, Home.
I became so bored with myself, i think i willed the dreary weather to come.
I haven't had much inspiration musically lately, and that's prob going to change.
Oh, Everyone Needs To Watch Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind, So Amazing.
Wow, my life is getting boring, it's going to be for the next two weeks i guess.
I think i'm going to watch a movie, and laze around, maybe actually do my homework (wow huh?)

lovelovelove

Good Afternoon

Didn't Go To School Today, Had a Nasty-Ass Cough Last Night, kept me up till like 3am.
SO i woke up at 6:45 and the first thing i said to my mom was, i feel like shit.
and passed out till about 11:30 and woke up.
Smoked A Cigarette, Got a Shower.
Got A Chance To Talk To My Friend Chloee from England, because they're ahead a couple of hours. Telling me about how much her school sucks, how different england is, and how unself confident she is.
Also got a chance to organize some of the chaos that is my house.
Goddamn cough, i swear one day i'm going to rip my lungs out.
Ben Got me into some new music,
The Dear Hunter and La Dispute.
and they're are both beastly.
Ate.
Chloee wanted to hear me sing again, so i recorded a capella and it sounds good, so i wanna just start getting some more acoustic guitar and sing to it.

Listening: La Dispute, The Dear Hunter, Alive In Wild Paint.
Reading: Nothing =/
Watching: Mom is Picking me Up Eternal Sunshine on The Spotless Mind =]

Yes We Can? NO you can't.

Wow it is beautiful today, i just came in to make a side note.
83 degrees or so in Pittsburgh PA today and if i wasn't grounded off my ass i would be loving it so much more.
Hey, Friday was pretty great and i thought my groundation would be ten times as worse, but i guess as it hit 1 am sunday morning it got better.
I'll be spending the next two weeks stuck at home, doing nothing, so in fact, i'll be blogging alot hahaha.
But yeah, going back to the sun, peace in the middle east

lovelovelove

yeah...

What the fuck did i do?
seriously i waan know why all this shit is happing to me,
because i'm fucking dumb about shit i guess,
i never realize what consquenses come out of things,
and i'm tired of being judged and ripped apart.
by my family even, i think i'm just gonna keep to myself and not really talk to anyone except a few people for a while.

Since When Are Kanye Shades So Scene?

Hahahaha Title For The Next Song^^^^^^

So there's like nothing going on today at all anymore, no big plans, no big parties, life has got...unexciting. I'm out of cigarettes so i'mma need to take that journey, woohoo, and i hafta deal with my mother when i come home and her bitchiness. Which basically sucks because chris dipped. AGAIN so i'm just like ehhhh in the mood just to be a douche bag.

I Was Looking Through Old Picutres..



11/15/07?
Yeah it was when the old theatre was open.






Nick Kov's Bday? Oct 07
Yeah I Remember This, We All Went To Peter's Skate Park and Thought We were beasts






hahahahaha Feb 08
Chelsy's House, i was playing with the skelephant.






Spring 08?
Me and Monkey on the bus when he actually went to school had a job and lived somewhere productive.






Periods Almost Over, Gotta Go

Lovelovelove

Sitting Here In Computer App.

Another Beginning of Another Day, Yet this Day won't happen again, I can't click repeat like i can on my ipod and listen to the words today, only slight memories of everydays past, because either way, it's all going to fail and we're all gonna fall, good day, bad day, i don't know anymore, i don't classify days anymore i just classify by emotion and experience, who i talk to, how late i stay up, which is a really screwed up sleeping schedule, how much i eat, which strangly isn't much, and therefore when i want to eat i'm starving. I realize, looking over what i typed, it seems i have no major purpose anymore, i don't have a major goal in life, basically i just want to live while i can, before experience what happens after death, and basically since i am a christian i believe that i will go to Heaven, so letsee what heaven is like.

My friends feel more distant everyday, yet some are close-by, I move onto new groups every once in a while and since i came back I haven't been chilling with some of my closest friends, yet i've been with some older ones, I'm so confused by myself, because I don't uderstand me, other people can claim that they do understand themselves, or someone else, but you can't understand me, i don't, i'll tell myself something and do the complete opposite. I'm just crazy hahaha

My Friend Brandon Just Told Me This Looks Like A Suicide Note, lmfao, but It's not, I'm not depressed, I'm just observing my day-to-day life nowadays.

Listening - Ipod on Shuffle.
Random Songs That Have Played By:
Knights - Minus The Bear
About a Girl - The Academy Is...
I Will Possess Your Heart - DCFC
Seven Years - Saosin (ANTHONY GREEN)
Antlion - Dance Gavin Dance

Watching (Well About To Watch Next Period and Finished Last Period)
The Phantom of the Opera - Fucking Awesome
Gettysberg - Pretty Cool.


lovelovelove

I Thought You Read The Tutorial

Intricate Footsteps, Shaking Faster.
Watching My Wake, Avoiding Disasters
Pit In My Stomach Aching Now.
Am I Burning, Inside Out

Do You See Whats Infront of Me?
Vocal Chords Aching Now.
From Screaming Out Loud
These Empty Echos Is My Sound
I Can't Stand To Feel This Way

Are You Straight Shooting At Me, At Me?
Are You Straight Shooting At Me?

I'm So Tired of Sickness Without The Illness
Can't Control Myself At All.
In rage and angst
I'll Take of These Chains
and Throw Them Into THe Wall

Watching My Tracks I Stow Away,
In A Place I Can't Recall Today.
Make Sure You Won't Know Where I Am
When I Sleep Tonite.

Are You Straight Shooting At Me, At Me?
Are You Straight Shooting At Me?

I Can't Take This No More.
I Am on The Floor
The Seizure-Like Syptoms Breaking Me Down
My Mind Is Broken The Pieces Around.

I'm So Tired of Sickness Without The Illness
Can't Control Myself At All.
In rage and angst
I'll Take of These Chains
and Throw Them Into THe Wall

Are You Straight Shooting At Me, At Me?
Are You Straight Shooting At Me?

a cliche written on page two.

that would be something written by danny, whom i may co found a band with him, i would play bass and sing, while he does screaming, we need guitarists and a drummer, but yeah hahaha, new band idea. I watch myself change constantly, like ever since i came back from the cruise, i just walk around hear like everything's new, my grades are rising and i might finally get a fucking job, but other than that nothing much new going on.

listening: Kevin Devine
watching: Dan In Real Life.

I owe you....don't i?

So Seriously, I Need To Stop Realizing Things After I've Lost Myself In them. Like toda, i woke up at noon, realizing they went to church without me, (sorry ben) well it wasn't much waking up i mean, i came home last night on 4 liters of skittles, ate a full box of little ceasars, and watch The Producer. I could hardly sleep even after all the alcohol wore off, and started coughing all night, and finally slept around 4 AM, and then had a restless, hot, coughing sleep, which sucked. I'm pissed I missed copeland last night, so i better make lydia and DGD or i will eat babies, all day long. I also gotta somehow pay back g, for being ever so gracious to me. I wish i was older, it's my age that's holding me back in life.

These Are For Ben

Out Of Tune

I’ve Been Gone For So Long,
I Forgot What It Was Like,
To See These People, Falling.

I Can’t Wait For Long.
I Can’t Wait To Be Gone.

I’m Out of Tune,
I’m Out Of Tune,
I’m Out of Tune With You.

This Static’s Growing Faster,
Fuck Your Happily Ever After.
This Place Ruins Lives,
I’m Tired Of Walking Around Dead Inside.

Yeah I Can’t Hear Out My Ears Anymore.
Open The Door So I Can Get Out.

I Broke Out Running Down The Street,
Running From All that Haunts Me.
I Can’t Stand To Hear Them Scream.
All These Memories Have Left Me
Why Did I Come Back To Hear Them Cry?

Cause All We Want,
Is To Be The Happiest They can Be
Why Did I Leave?
These People I Care About?
Cause I Can’t Stand To See Them Fall.

I Can’t Wait For Long.
I Can’t Wait To Be Gone.

I’m Out of Tune,
I’m Out Of Tune,
I’m Out of Tune With You.

This Static’s Growing Faster,
Fuck Your Happily Ever After.
This Place Ruins Lives,
I’m Tired Of Walking Around Dead Inside.

Yeah I Can’t Hear Out My Ears Anymore.
Open The Door So I Can Get Out.

I Can’t Wait For Long.
I Can’t Wait To Be Gone

Failure Is My Only Line of Employment (WIP)

You Tell Me I’m Gorgeous.
But I Look in The Mirror
And See The Skeletons in My Closet.

I Can’t Breathe, It’s All Around Me.
Can You Hand That To Me?
I Never Wanna Come Down.

Can You Please?
Help Me?
I Just Don’t Wanna See Reality.

Can You Hear Them Calling?
I DON'T
Because I Don't Wanna Feel.


Hold This, Tightly As I Lose My SIGHT.
It’s Worth This Feeling, This Feeling of Euphoria,
It is, so WONDERFUL

You Tell Me I’m Gorgeous.
But I Look in The Mirror
And See The Skeletons in My Closet.

I Can’t Breathe, It’s All Around Me.
As You Can See.
NEVER COME DOWN

Light Up This City

I see this town,
can we burn it, can we burn it?
I see this town.
Let’s burn it to the ground.

Grab You’re Gasoline
We Can Pour it In The Streets,
Stabbing all our enemies,
Can You Hear The Screams?

We see this wreckage place.
That we feel disgraced to live in.
We turn our eyes to the stars.

Light Up This City.
Can you hear them running?
They’re Time Is Coming.
We’re in Our Own little world.

Light Up This City.
Watch The Fire Lick Up The Buildings
AS OUR SHADOWS DANCE WITH THE FLAMES

I see this town,
can we burn it, can we burn it?
I see this town.
Let’s burn it to the ground.


People Wandering The Streets,
In Fear Of What We Could Be.
I say fuck it and light the match.
They don’t need mercy.

We see this wreckage place.
That we feel disgraced to live in.
We turn our eyes to the stars

Light Up This City.
Can you hear them running?
They’re Time Is Coming.
We’re in Our Own little world.

Light Up This City.
Watch The Fire Lick Up The Buildings
AS OUR SHADOWS DANCE WITH THE FLAMES


WE SAY FIGHT FIRE WITH FIRE
WE SAY FIGHT FIRE WITH FIRE

(then at the same time)

LETS WATCH THIS CITY, BURN
LIGHT IT UP

Who Is John Galt?

Gravity is Losing Me,
Just Like This,
Sea of Lies I Swim Through.
Missing You It's Worth A Thousand Strides,
With You Is Worth this Life,

Holding On To What I Feel..

Who Are You?
Who Are You I'm Searching For?
Who Are You I Love So Much Now.
Have I Just Lost My Mind?
Trying To Find, Love This Time..

Stay Awake,
So They Wont get Me
When I Sleep, They Steal My Memories
Darling It Gets Better,
Whether or Not, I Find You
Depends On This.

Holding On To What I Feel..

Who Are You?
Who Are You I'm Searching For?
Who Are You I Love So Much Now.
Have I Just Lost My Mind?
Trying To Find, Love This Time..

Boringggggg.

So School Today, Was A Bore, I toook atleast 5 tests in my nine classes. and I'm pretty happy on my performance on all of them, History, Computer App, American Pop were a breeze, I'm just hoping my English test was okay. I passed out on the bus, to be woken up by my brother, brokencyde blasting in my ears, How did i pull that off? Same way i pull off sleeping when my english teacher is screaming at me ahahaha.

Hmm, Hope I Can Go Out Tonite? It's the weekend and i cleaned my room, and the bathroom and did the laundry and dishes, just so my mom wouldn't be a super bitch. I need to get fucked up, i've been pissy allll weeekkk.

Music Today?
Eyes Set To Kill - Reach
Asher Roth - The Greenhouse Effect Vol.1 and Asleep in The Bread Aisle
Crystal Castles
Bob Marley

Talking to kara? Yes, but i can't help to feel a little bit jealous of people, i mean I'm jealous of you moon, tonight you get to see her.

lovelovelove
Jakob.

We are slayed.... THE PARTY IS DEAD

Turn This Clock Backward.
And Forget This Ever Happened.
Watch these Colors Blend.
The World is Upside Down. x2

Crush the Line,
It's time to forget about
what may ail me.
What you can't see.
Breaking Apart Inside.

Tearing Through.

Oh, This Feeling is so intangible,
Can You Repeat it For Me?
Can You Repeat It For Me?
Oh, Reality is Gripping on Me
Can I Stay in a Fantasy?
I'm tired of Suffering.!

Come, Make The Drop
In Secret.
I Can't Do Facial Ques
So Come Inside,
I'll Pay You Extra,
Cause You Hook Me Up

There is such a bitter taste in my mouth,
I would have it anyway else, than this
I Just Don't want to care.
I'm choking from the smoking.
My vision is gone, gone, gone.

Oh, This Feeling is so intangible,
Can You Repeat it For Me?
Can You Repeat It For Me?
Oh, Reality is Gripping on Me
Can I Stay in a Fantasy?
I'm tired of Suffering.!

Hand Me The Pipe
I want to breathe in my new life
Lose Control of Myself at The Toll Gate

I'm Not Overly Concerned...

Hey There Kiddies, What's going On?
Nothing Much? Me Neither, My Blog Has Almost Become A Halt, and My Other One Is Like Non-Existent, so i thought Damn Let's Do Some Talking.

All Spring Break, I Was On A Boat (FUCK TREES I CLIMB BOUEYS MOTHAFUCKA) well more correctly a Disney Cruise, which was probably one of the best things i've ever been to in my life (other than shows) I met the most amazing people and had a great time, but it reminded me when i had to come back here and i seriously don't like being back home, i wanna be somewhere else (in perticular Michigan) but like all that's around here is Drama, Drama, Drama, and Pain and Heartbreaks and Drugs and Dissapiontment and I hate it, people are all out for themselves, and even though i'm not included in alot of it i hafta watch my friends go through it and it pisses me off because i care about all of them and seriously i can't wait for another bottle to pass into my hand so i don't hafta worry.

I want my love to be around here soon, Kara Nicole Markee, is like my dream girl, not gonna lie at all, she is perfect to me and i'm tired of watching ever other couple be all over each other in my school when i was i had that terribly.

How many tests do i have tommorrow? History? Alg2? Science? Fucking A Mate, (Damn, I Miss Ben, stupid Brit) Well Alright (ROY RODER I MISS YOU) I Guess that i should go smoke this cigarette so my head will stop hurting.

Listening: Anna Begins Cover - Craig Owens
Watching: ENDGAME - Alex Jones (World Conspiricy Theory)

Hmmm. Happiness?

other than that being the new dance gavin dance album, i'm pretty fucking happy right now, drama is at an all time low, my friends are wonderful (new and old) this girl is amazing and i'm making new music.

Jesus, It's Been Forever.

Jeez, I Miss The Disney Cruise.

So Children, It's Been Forever, and I apologize deeply for the inconveince, but no one reads this blog anyways, it's my only private getaway spot. Well, I Can't describe how amazing the cruise was, i met some amazing people, i'll just name them striaght up.

Ben (Benard) Maudsley, best britsh chap i've ever met, i fucking love him.
Kara Markee, I love you darling, and i can't wait to see you again, you are like my perfection in a girl, not gonna lie.
Roy Roder, WELL ALRIGHT, i miss you buddy, all 6'5 320 pounds of you.
Giselle Dist, You my darling are beautiful and i miss you terribly.
Anna Thorner, you and your permastonedness, i miss you too.
John McCarthy, buddy i would go to minnisota and see you,
and much more but those are some stand outs.

I realized how much my friends back here mean to me as well and how much i missed them, you guys are wonderful and i wouldn't give anything to leave you, I decided i'm not going to be promisuous anymore because seriously, it's not worth it the lifestyle i was living, but same as the same i hate drama as well. I found a girl, even though she lives far away, they way i feel around her is just amazing.

I'm jamming lydia, who is in fact my favorite band (dance gavin dance is up there in second) (and anthony green is my favorite artist ever) which reminds me of show updates,
4/20- Alesana, Drop Dead Gorgeous, ISMFOF ( I hate them so much) Fear Before
4/30 - LYDIA
5/4 - DANCE GAVIN DANCE, A Skylit Drive, ATTACK ATTACK!

I'm not sure about the alesana show, but the second two are musts, two of my favs ion a 5 day period? fucking righteous? yes? yes? hahahahahha

Isn't She Gorgeous?! ^^^^

Kara Markee is my fucking hero and i'm gonna marry her loserass.

i love you darling hahhaha


Listening - Illuminate - Lydia
Watching - Stranger Than Fiction (Will Ferrel)
Reading - Nothing Currently Help Me?

The World.....

Today woke up my eyes, a little more than comfortable, but then again, i want my eyes open to horrors because you people ignore them like there's nothing. You address bondage and sex slavery like it's natural to be in other countries, and it's not, not at all, it's evil and wrong but you know, we're too conceived within our own little world, our own drama, and our own schedules to give a fuck about them, people are dying, a friend of mine got raped last week even, i just found out someone i loved has also, but never told me, her best friend is in the hospital, prayers for him, and her in fact because she's a mess. prayers for my other friend who's older brother's friend was in a car accident and passed away, prayers for me, as i piece myself together from my meltdown smoking is a bad thing don't start.

but of course, no one reads this so it'll just pass like nothing has happened.

Listening : Copeland - You Are My Sunshine.
Watching : Lemony Snicket's A Series of Unfortunate Events (Yes Jim Carrey)

lovelovelove.

wip brb

I feel, like we've become oh so distant.
I used to have a voice,
but it seems so quiet anymore.
and i gotta, pick myself up.
do the chore that i've been putting off

h.o

Run, Run Run, To Me,
I'm Still Blind, Help Me See?
Be The Center of My Gravity.
I Picture You So Perfectly.
Don't Talk,
This Silence Is The Best Thing.
I Could Ever Ask For.

I am, The Luckiest.

I'm looking around and realize, that all i want is right in front of me, my friends, my family, my music, and like ferealz idk what i'd do without these people, and i'm just thanking God for what i have, i feel lucky to have people. The only thing missing is a girl, and I've fucked up so much so it's just crazy how i'm still just like, yeah relationships suck, there's no love, i'm sure there is somewhere, It's just, what i've run into just lowered my hopes and i guess, i just want to be loved by someone, who will love me even if i fuck up, and wion't try to change, i wanna look into a girls eyes and be like, i'm the luckiest, you are fucking amazing.

Listening - Ben Folds.
Reading - Romeo and Juliet

Drink My Beer and Smoke My Weed. xD

Wow, 3 Weeks, not sober for a full day.
Pulls up my point on how life goes on without a relationship.
I'm lovin this though, but a relationship would be nice,
Goign To C-Reed's Tonight, Get More Fucked Up.

I Think...

Listening (Alot This Time)
Almost Home - The Academy Is...
Castles of Ice - Minus The Bear
You Are My Sunshine - Copeland
Canvas EP - The Sibling

That i'mm gonna spend some time on this new girl that's prob reading this blog xD
she seems like someone i'd like to spend time with =D
like i ranted about how i hate relationships, not true, i hate getting hurt in relationships,
and basically i wanna have one that's enjoyable, and that doesn't hurt me or whomever she is.
so that's my thought today.

I Got A Bulletproof Vest On.

listening: Dance Gavin Dance - Self Titled
watching: Icarly xD

Soooo Time to Dump My Thoughts out on this random output yet again.
This past week has been, idk for me, and i haven't been writing alot at all.
Music-wise it's amazing, i have DS down, and we're gonna write some more, and if i get lucky i might, and i mean MIGHT as in have no clue join the sibling.
Butt continuing i'm just like realizing all my philosphies are pretty much right, but like the right where you don't want it to be right. liek i've been constantly screwed up the past week and i really just don't care about relationships anymore, they piss me off, seriouisly, and i've had sex twice in the last fucking week and i also realized how unimportant it is, yet peple make it seem like life depends on who your fucking. urgh it's so material this world, why can't we just focus on what is important to us?

Wait, i can't my mom is a bitch and likes to restrict me from my passion...
Yeah wow i'm just becoming an angry person i hate this new me, but i don't know where to go anymore.
i feel lost, out of place, losing it.

So Basicalllyyyyy

i haven't posted in forever.
i'm sorry.
hahahaha.
my life has been like up lately, well idk which direction it's going.
i'm just getting blown alot lately.
it's just like, i've found no purpose to drive myself any longer than i feel i want too anymore.
the feelings i've had towards people, are inpossible to reciprocate the feelings, and it sucks because love has lost me. and it's fine for now, but it'll suck later.

In My Bed, I'd Fuck Your Feathers.

URGH
i'm in such a terrible mood, like i want to, shoot someone.
i feel as if, i'm just wasting time, just because i don't want to do things.
Like ferrealz, i'm just swirled up in emotions right now.
just a mixture of pissedoff/excited/fuckedup/annoyed
and it's driving me insane!
wow.
JakobJuvinelle (9:33:59 PM): dude.
JakobJuvinelle (9:34:08 PM): take this retrospect.
JakobJuvinelle (9:34:13 PM): it makes life SO much easier
JakobJuvinelle (9:34:29 PM): i'm not planning on being with lindsay forever.
JakobJuvinelle (9:34:42 PM): i'm planning on having a good time while i'm with her.
JakobJuvinelle (9:34:49 PM): and if she wants to go do her own thing.
JakobJuvinelle (9:34:54 PM): it's fine with me.
JakobJuvinelle (9:35:00 PM): i'm done with being attached to people.
^^^^^^
That's what's driving me insane right now, like lindsay be my girllyfran, but like the last week, our conversations have been like one word responses to each other, and it's been kinda annoying and out of touch and forealz if i'mma get dumped, it's okay with me, it's all what she wants, but like i hate the fucking motions that people go through.

myspace.com/definesanityhxc
AND
myspace.com/thesiblingband
^^^^
This is why i'm excited, i had practice yesterday and it was fucking awesome.

why do you think i'm fucked up?
lmfao

My mom is a piece of shit and that's why i'm annoyed right now.


lovelovelove

Exhaustion

Listening: Relativity - Emarosa,
Read: All Quiet on The Western Front.


So i'm running on 2 hours of sleep and a 2 liter of mtn dew, and random other thing keep me awake, and i feel like i've been hit by a train, but i'm just chillin here, feeling like death, hahaha, but hmmm on my mind? oh, Relativity by Emarosa, wonderful album, go pick it up or illegally download it, (we all have limewire so duhh) and i'm done with the book i had to read for English, which is probably a "boring" novel, but people have to open their eyes to everything in life or it will just slip by, and you'll miss it. Continuing, this book is spectacular, and i know in school, it seems forced, but i took a day off to read it and write a report (which i prob screwed up) and it is a very well written book, i enjoyed actually going over it and feeling the experiences shared in the book, it compares to nowadays problems to me, "We are a lost generation" it seems to me that not just anyone taken in a war, or a mugging or a crime is the same to someone who commits suicide in our own neighborhood, people are in fact lost. I support groups like twhola and invisible children for this reason: We are human, not super beings who are above feelings, we can hurt, it's just alot of us slap on that fake smile every morning and no one notices, but i'm the kind of guy who notices, and I'm here for people who are hurt and lost, that;s just me and my bigg heart (thanks jesus, make things more difficult for me)

love love love

I had to feel farewell.

Listening: Maybe I'm Dreaming - Owl City.
Reading: All Quiet on the Western Front.


Today wasn't a bad day persay, but like it was an out day. Like i was seriously, out of my body, random emotions have been running through me, mainly annoyance. My friends are just urgghhhh lateley, I've been ripped off, ditched, ignored and a buncha other shit, but like that's one, my gf's sick and not only can't i see her, she's miserable, and i hate when my girly is sad =[ I'm in this mood, where my emotions will flow right out, if something is bothering me, i'll just say it and it sucks, because i hide things inside.

Shit, i can hardly concentrate.

Happy Birthday To Me.

Watching: Unforgiveable (Youtube Video)
Listening: Isles & Glaciers, Dollface Divine, and Fancy Me Dead

Si it tis my birthday and i don't really know what to look forward too, it's just another stage of life, and just i don't know i guess. i'm exhausted from a show i saw about 5 hours ago with my lover and jimmy, and it's just, i look back from last year to this year and not much has gotten better on my part, no really progress just some downturns. i stopped doing everything athletic, found out how heartless people are, and basically how you're best friend can stab you in the back. Drama, Drama and more Drama. Being Major Heartbroken, recovering and ending up just fucking around, not knowing any direction i'm heading. (Even Though I Have a Gorgeous Girlfriend and I'm planning on being with her for as long as she'll have me) I just guess, that life has lost it's light for me, and i'll be looking for that way out, it's just something i've realized.



I feel like i'm missing out on something, but i don't know what it is. Life's just breezing by while I feel lost.

BEATRICE (don't kill me xD)

Watching: Ace Ventura: Pet Detective and Happy Tree Friends
Listening: Translating The Name - Saosin







The Reason to Rebel Is To Make A Point, Yours - Me.

Friendships are strange, like forealls, I have alot of friends (Cursed I am my heart's toooo big) and I'm just a very friendly person, so I notice everything around my friends, drama drama drama, and basically when it's quiet people have nothing to do. I HATE today's AMERICAN PROPAGANDA, everything has to be a fucking soap opera, goddamn seriously people jsut like to start problems, can't we be happy wth our own business? Can't we just hang out, have fun and be teenagers? Spend the rest of you're young years happy? Like take this: you're staring at someone who used to be you're best friend and you "hate them" fuck you don't, you were their best friend for years! Personally, the worser thing is when a friend drifts off, and you just realize one day, they're gone, and someone's replaced you.

OMFG THE ISLES AND GLACIERS MUSIC IS SO FUCKING AMAZING, sorry i had to get that out.


hahaha no pictures tonite, i'm exhausted,

Paranoia?

Watching: Kyle Xy (lmfao)
Listening: Futures - Jimmy Eat World (Good Album For Those Seeking Comfort)
Reading: Atlas Shrugged - Ayn Rand (Creator of The Religon Objectivism)



So lately I've been noticing how paranoid people are getting about everything lately, me too i mean espcailly if it's someone i care about or have feelings for. usually, this would be the part where i tell everyone to calm the fuck down, but something is bothering me and i'm hating the paranoia about it, cuz like I'm SURE it's not true but it's bothering me, but whatever. Continuing. i'm watching my one friend get paranoid over his gf about guys, and her being friends with them, and that is a BIG mistake, guys and girls can be friends genius it's just when you feel like, a certain guy is after her, then you do something. Like Seriously, dude she's going to a concert with me and a friend of OURS get that through you're skull buddy.


Time To Bitch about something. Stupid Ex Fucking Girlfriends. wowww, dammit girl get this through you're head, there's no bad feelings or more than friend feelings, so i want to be your friend yes, but NOT if you're going to complain about me 24/7 fuck that shitttt. like foreal guys, I like to be friends with my ex's because alot tof we're a big part of my life or have taught me something about myself that has helped me grow but basically this one ex is fucking life, YOU STILL HAVEN'T QUIT SMOKING? Damn, I just made up with you yesterday and this is how you're gonna treat me? Boys and Girls, stay away from the crazy ones.

Random Poem?

Wind Blows The Shadows.
Dancing In The Rain.
Off The Streetlights.
That reflects my image.
Moon is Visible,
My Smoke Invisible.
As The Light Wanes
Into Another Day.

---Me


Picture Time!

This Reminds Me of Summer when I was Carefree and Happy nothing bothered me.



This is my favorite time of the day, plus it reminds me of the worst day in my life so far.



lovelovelove

Life Will Come Together?

Watching: Biggest Loser Xd (or watched)
Listening: Plans - Death Cab For Cutie.

I HATE people being heated, espcially my MOM, my sisters are the devils children and basically Grace hit Lauren and that's that. BUT my mom decides to flip on me and turn off the computer when i'm in the middle of a conversation, basically anger is a disease, don't let it spread.

So My Girlfriend in a poem/rant (idc) Asked a question, "When Will Life Come Together?"
and i basically sat down and deciphered this into my own thoughts. My religon claims (which i believe in my heart and soul) that Christ will bring you're life together, that's wonderful right? Yeah Eternal Life I Want That. BUT Continuing on My Rant of the Day, I don't want my life to come together, until i die of course and be saved, but i don't want, the "perfect life" I don't want everything laid out for me, i don't like making plans on this date and that, i love chaotic places, i like jumping nto the unknown, i love randomness, if i could go randomly fly somewhere(SAN FRANSICO) right now, i would, i love being insecure, because that's my most secure place. Basically, I Don't Want A Future, I Want To Build My Own




They say, that you can see into someone's soul threw they're eyes,
Can You See Into Mine, Can I See Into Yours? I Wish I Could.



People Mask their real selves for many reasons, but if you mask yourself, who will know the real you? maybe you won't even recognize yourself.



lovelovelove

Baby, Just Ask Once More.

Watching: Handcock (yes the will smith movie) and Mitchell Davis
Listening: Crystal Castles - Crystal Castles, This Musicbox in te shape of a basset hound

It's Funny, How People Strive To Be Happy, I mean i'm not one to talk, becasue that's human nature, but seriously, i'm looking at these past few weeks and like, i lead two girls on, (well not purposely,) because i wanted to see if they were right for me, and unfortanetly they weren't. I started talking to my ex and i absolutley FUCKED that up, because who am I? Jake Dahl, the target of heartbreakers, but good things eventually come, and she did =] 2/8/09

I look around my absolutely trashed basement, and see all the storage from when we moved here 6 years ago. There's my acoustic, it's supposed to be 12-strings but yeah it's only 5, don't ask, i don't know. There's this music box, in the shape of my old dog, that guy was the shit =]

I realize, that i'm probably not going far from here as i age, personally i want to move into main town CBG or PGH just because i love the city.

Picture Time



This Describes My Feelings Right Now.



What Do You Want, A Cookie? Get Out My Face Boy.
I LOVE This Movie =p

All The Worlds A Stage - William Shakespeare

Fuckin Foreaallzz, Time For A Serious Blog, idk even know what to be serious about, oh! take chances is a good one for right now. I took a chance, and unfortanetly threw someone away (Check Tough Thoughts and Forget Me Knots) and i'm the happiest i've been in months, wow, greatest stupid idea (GO BROKENCYDE CONCERT) oh yeah, another one, Life Is Precious, don't ever forget, GOD given gift, my loves, and you think what the fuck ever? NO i have friends who aren't going to live past fucking 20! and you're COMPLAINING about YOU'RE LITTLE DRAMA? fuck that, but that also ties in the title, "All The Worlds A Stage" - William Shakespeare, what comforts me is that all the world is is a stage, and you WILL move on to the next life, (Yes I Am Christian) I'm not the, Upmost follower of God, but i do however know my stance. Oh Yeah, I'm Going for this one. My Relationship View: As Long As They're Happy, I'm Doing My Job. After all this shit with her and herr and herrr and well you get it, ii've just gotten fucked up, and that's because my perception was small, and now it's large, when you are the type of person who takes in everything like me, you get to understand yourself and the world better, best relationship view for me is, Do The Best Job You Can, like seriously some relationships are just about sex, some are so prude that you're just like ohkayyy. but ferreal, bringing back my other point, your job in a relationship is to make you're other happy, not just yourself, it's about the BOTH of you, and the way you can achieve happiness is treating them like they deserve, which i'm usuing in my relationship now, oh and fereal if you're young like me (15 going on 16) stop with the bullshit of, Is this My True Love? Fuck that, you should date to have a good time, BUT if you doooo happen to fall in love, Lucky You =]

Picture Time



This Absolutely Describes My Feelings Right Now, well, that plus a cute girl holding a penguin xD
likeeeee thisss



Well Not A 5 Year Old, More Like My Adorable Girlfriend.

Almost Forgot, I Know This Isn't My Music Blog, but If You'd Like, a better understanding of my thoughts, listen to Lydia - Illuminate, The Receiving End Of Sirens - The Earth Sings Mi FA Mi and Circa Survive - Juturna. I Seriously Get ALOT of Inspiration From These Albums.

Well, Time To Smoke, (Cigarettes) Don't Start, I HATE Smoking.

love love love

Don't You Say That I've Gone Crazy.....

So, Valentines Day Yesterday, Slept in, got lindsay some stuff (even though we HATE vday) and got free burger king =] (yay Josh, Kevin and My Lovely Girl) and basically watched mitchel davis all day, made my brother look sexy

Here's A Pic. (Actually Mutliple Pics.)

Basically that sexy ass mothafucka is my creation ^^^^

OH yeah i hafta show you what i got my gf!






Yeah That Gold Chain? ALL ME BABY =]] ^^^^

But Forealz, my day got ruined in an instant, someone very dear to me is very sick and she has always been there for me, and I want all you're prayers to go to her, and no i'm not saying who she is because she'll kill me, but hun, you are loved, and in my thoughts.

love love love.

You're A Bad Influence

I said that and twenty shots and a couple beers later, here i am xD thank you loverbitch/pengybaby/lindsay =]<3 hahahaha also i'm being hit on a gay guy who wants my dick and i'm being teased with my gf's gorgeousness, UNFAIR =/ Well, i want a smoke, maybe some bedtime, IT's VALENTINES DAY EVERYONE, i got you things lindsay, a necklace, an army hat and a owl, yes, i'm telling you now because you won't read this xD

12:26 AM xD

SO Like wowoww forrealz, obi one kenobi, WTF? oh yeah star wars cartoon movie nigguhs? hahaha fuck yes, i'mma a loser, damn, whose crazy, me GET SILLY, haha go carson fox. LARGE FRIES MOTHAFUCKA, yes lindsay i brought you're work and dane cook together, welll, no he did, but i <3 you girlyyfriend, go be drunk without me xD me + shorts plus basement = cold. LIL WAYNE? yes fucking lil wayne, weezy f. baby, if i was homo, i would want you're dick. i already have a rapper name so fuck you're couches i am JKIZZLE and forrealls, my nizzles you can't match that, because i am BLACK AS SNOW, FUCK YES =]

I Posted This For My PenguinBaby =]

This, This Feeling,
I Jumped, At The Slightest Of Hope.
This Twinge In My Heart, Reminds Me Of Old.
When Did Life Get Better, Can't Blame The Weather
It's Terrible, Yet Beautiful,
I'll Watch The Rain Fall, While Thinking
Of You.What Me and You Could Do, Could Be.
I'm Falling, I'm Falling.

Penguins =]]

Just To Let You Know, I'm Thinking About You =]
haha you're my penguin baby and yes you're the one with the mohawk.
i love you're kisses and you smile and everything else. =]]]

lovelovelove.

New Blogspot - Music

jkizzlefoshizzle.blogspot.com
that's my music blog, i'm just gonna be random on here.

Tough Thoughts and Forget Me Knots

Cigarette Smoke Rolls down my breath as i sit on my roof on a late saturday night. Damn, I hate Newports, Flick the Square off my roof, and lay down starring out onto a cloudy sky. Thinking of you, i'm split, part of me loves the life i lead without you, but then again i miss everything we had. There are two kinds of people in this world. Those Who Act and Those Who Regret Not Acting. I've been on both sides of that and i have no clue which person i am. Nothing Solves Anything, Like for instance, the alcoholic drinks to keep bad thoughts away, yet when they sober up the issue is still there. 8 months have changed me alot, and seriously, i do regret being with you for that period of time, and i miss you and love you very much. Staring out into the dreary night which is my favorite time, since i live for the night, these thoughts run through my head till i can't take it anymore. Light Up another Newport, drag, exhale, calm. Thoughts Swirl Down and I Have My Answer. Whatever you decide is best, and i know that, but i want you to pick me, i want to hold you and love you again. Flick my Cigarette Off and go inside, one of our songs is on the radio, "I Miss You - Blink-182" Shit, This Sucks, Waiting, but Paitence is My Vurtue, I'm Different, I'm Not The Scared Person I Was Before. Our conversations earlier where wonderful, i forgot you had left me, but then it all comes back and pain rushes in. I lay down in bed, knowing i love you, and that i'm done being scared.

Fuck Profile Editor 2.0

Like Seriously, I Liked The Old Profile Themes So Much Better Liek for Fucking Real This Shit Is Pissing Me Off, Fuck You Myspace. like omfg.

Talkin To Rockstar (APEPC)

So, I'mma Apparently A Good Beginner =]]
YAY and i'mma downloading Adobe Audition 3 So I Can Rock My Shizz =]
Excited Much?
YES

So Talked To J Spizzy

DDC :) is goin on tour and the cool part about this is that after the tour, JayReck (Scene Kidz, Solo Shit and Producer of Tillthewheelsfalloff and other DDC song) and J Spizzy (Dropping A Popped Locket) are joining Dot Dot Curve so it'll be like a 3 Person Group? Kickass Yes.

I am The Boy Who Sets You're Girl On Fire.

Hmmm. What Have I Been Listening To Lately?

Rock Spectacle - Barenaked Ladies (Classic Ninety's Canadian Rock)
Transalanticism - Death Cab For Cutie (Such an Amazing Band)
Tha Carter III (AGAIN) - Lil Wayne (Weezy is muy Fav.)
Wires... - A Skylit Drive (The Skylit Drive Obsession Hasn't Reached Me, But They're Good)
Thr33 Rings - T-Pain (T-Pain is muy 2nd Fav)
Downtown Battle Mountain - Dance Gavin Dance (Love Johnny Craig)

Super BOWL VICTORY NIGGUH!

Oh Fuck Yeah, Steelers Win It. 27-23. and damn i was biting my nails all through-out it, i was like swearing out loud, drinking, eating chips the whole she-bang and seriously? Santinio Holmes and fucking James Harrison oh yeah. Well Nite People Lovely Day =]

Pre-Steelers Blog

Okay, Steelers, Super Bowl in Like 3 1/2 Hours Mayne!!
Get Hyphy For This SHIT, If They Don't Win I'll Be So Angry =/
But Yeah Go Steelers

Killer Headache.

7:00
Gulp.

Yeah, I'm Spending Tonite, Taking Ibuprofen.
Pill Poppin Animal Much? No, Not Really.
but i did take 10, and that's more than "6 in a 24hr period"

7:30
Got Hung Up on By My Ex, Lovely.
Another Cigarette with the guilt and loneliness please.

Well, The Headaches Gone,
I wanna go to bed, it's 8 on a Friday?
shouldn't i be out somewhere?
with someone?

The Answer To That Is Yeahhh.
but whom to be with?
Drama Drama Drama.
I hate people.

8:30

Clunk,
Go Upstairs,
Family's Watching TV, Some reality show.
Smile Big, they don't know how you feel.

BAM
oh shit, ibuprofen, bad idea.
just hit me, wow, can i walk?

Seems Unlikey, My Head is Spinning Now.
People aren't answering my im's, or phone calls.
Be careful, No Pill Rages again.

8:50
haha Damn, Does This Stuff Last That Long?
I'm such a flirt screwed up yo.
woww.

Internet Goes Out, Again, I'mm Getting Pissy
With This Shit.

Urgh, Might As Well Post This Shit Now.
My Friday Evening.

Epiphany Numero Uno

Okay, Something Just Came To Me, Just Letting You Guys Know, I'm No Officailly on The "Fuck Dating" side, like seriously, i'm not gonna go after nothing, i'mma find someone at one point, who loves me for me, and seriously, i'm done chasing shitt, that person can come find me, cause i'm done looking for you, babe, you can fucking find me girly, i'm done looking for you, it's hurting moi too much. Nice Huh?


hahaha, I'm Jamming DJ Khaled, Sublime, Emarosa, Brokencyde and Good Charlotte Right Now. So There's You're Update on That. Still Watching Kyle xy Season 2! and oh yeah i went "Donuting" with Kookie today, that was some fun shit, go ruin the world children, Well, other thing, it says numero uno because i'mma have more epiphanies in my blog so this is number one.

Andrew and Becca and I.

Watch This, Guarented Wet Pants.

2 Hour Delay.

Well, It's Almost One am, Drinking This Cheap Kool-Aid Stuff My Sister Bought, it's like $1 a six pack, and i'm watching kyle xy, and he's going to school and wtf is this guy? hahaha, get a life jake? yeahhh i need one, and a few cigarettes, damn i love mat devine of kill hannah, raccoon society fuse.tv check itt. Wow, like seriously i'm sitting here watching tv script relationships, seriously, life cannot be replicated, you can't experience the little emotions, that people go through, espcially how their eyes wander in thought, or shit like that, tv and movies can't replicate. oh Something Like Human - Fuel, wonderful album. so is Plagues by TDWP and oh again with the Kill Hannah. Upcoming Show: Brokencye and Drop Dead Gorgeous, and i might be selling Aphobia Merch at Mr.Smalls =]

Peace.

Isles & Glaciers

Next Band of So Called All-Stars, Much like The Sounds of Animals Fighting, Isles and Glaciers is made up of artists of popular bands consisting of members from Chiodos, Emarosa, Cinematic Sunrise, Pierce the Veil, Underminded, and The Receiving End of Sirens. Mainly Importanr, Craig Owens (Chiodos, Cinematic Sunrise) and Johnny Craig (Emarosa, Ex-Dance Gavin Dance) Being The Vocalists. Vic and Mike Fuentes or Pierce the Veil For Drums and Guitar. Nick Martin, Guitar (also of Cinematic Sunrise, Undermined) Matt Goddard, Bass (Chiodos) Brian Southall Guitar/Programming (ex-Boys Night Out, ex-The Receiving End of Sirens, ex-Fordirelifesake) They Released 3 Rough Demos on a Radio Station. Clush, Hells Like White Elephants, and Empty Sighs and Wine. I&G EP Debated for March 2009.

Have Fun =]]

"Emo"

I'd like some goddamn recognition here, i'm not fucking "emo" or "scene" whatever you'd like to call it. I am jakob dahl and if you can't recognize that, i don't need you in my life. OH! and people that think they are "emo" you are just pathetic atempts to get recognition, but HOWEVER all the recognition you are getting is negative, so you people out there call yourself emo? Labels are the past, you define who you are, not a label. BTW Cutting doesn't do shit, been there done that. If you wanna kill yourself pick up a cigarette, and let's see how you feel in 2, 5, 15 years, that's killing yourself. Labels, pathetic. Peace.

Music I've Been Spinning Recently

I"m deff bringing up some random bands and artists but this is my main =]


Underclass Hero - Sum41 (Punk Rock)
Freedom - Akon (Hip Hop/R&B)
Forrbiden Love EP - Death Cab For Cutie (Indie/Rock)
The Moment - Framing Hanley (Alternative)
For Never and Ever - Kill Hannah (Alternative)
The Quilt - Gym Class Heroes (Hip Hop/Alternative Rock)
The Bake Sale - The Cool Kids (Hip Hop)

Sooo...

I've Been Really Fucking Sick, for like the last few days, and it has been, terrible. So basically, for some reason all i've been doing is laying down, watching movies, and taking medicine, but when i've actually got on the computer i've found this site where you can watch all the scrubs episodes =]] i'll link you right here ---->http://www.free-tv-video-online.info/internet/scrubs/index.html and after watching like all 6 1/2 season of scrubs (because the writers strike during the 7 season) i feel so much better xD not really, i still have a nasty cough. i'mma try to go to school in an hour or so, so wish me luck.

Lecture Time =]

Today is just like, a great day, and one little thing can ruin it. People Are Like Dominoes, Tip one over and they all crash. Damn Starting Shit For No Reason, Wow, Immature Girl, Get A Life, Sorry That You Can't Have Everything. Life is such a gift, and we ruin it, we imperfectious people. Seriously, when everythin crashes around you, the reaction is NOT to attack it, because damn, you're gonna get worse, go back to you're life, stop interrupting other peoples.

Jkizzle Solo Project.

So today i found my mic, and used my cuz's beat for XXRR's Home for a Freemix and it turned out my mic is the shit, and expect more from me in the future. I'm going to collab with a few artists so expect that. and idk jkizzle ep i'm gonna work on in feb.
pce.

Sanest of The Insane

Was Fucking Nasty. Got Dumped, and Seriuosly, I wanna talk about that, it kinda really bothers me. Like i used to be a complete screw up with chicks, i'd date them, get nothing and dump them. Really, I wanted to stop and Fuck, i try and i get dumped. That's what you get for being to nice. Whatever. Nick Shannon is my best friend yo, i mean seriuosly he and i talked for like 3 striaght hours and liek fuck we know each others lives practically. RIP Amanda, you are in our hearts. I'm watching scrubs, which is funny shit. I really don't know what's going on in my life anymore. I miss alot of shit, i miss when drama was nonexistent. i miss her, i miss her so damn much, and i seriously wish i could get over her but i can't. Urgh it's been 5 months, and nothing..

Just A Little Thought

Our World is corrupt , our lives taught to take down others, i hate this shit that people explain to be normal. People can be good, and they refuse to be, they would rather follow their selfish ambitions, and i admit, i'm not perfect, i just want to be better. But seriously i hate people, i hate pointless drama, this shit that fucking controls us, i want to have fun, get fucked up party, and all this other shit that teenagers do, which is also something the world says is okay, and you know what i believe in what i believe in, i don't take shit from others, i can fucking tell you what's up and whats wrong and really, The World is Fucked Up Jesus Come Soon,

New Song, I Wrote =]

My Fragmented Dreams, Represent the Past


Don’t Be Afraid, We Belong Together.
Forever……

The Shattered Glass, Falls From The Window,
As You Drove Away That Night.
Smoke Rolls Down My Breath.
As I Silently Say GoodBye.

This Was All a Goddamn Mistake.
I Can’t Live, Like This Anymore.

Fuck I Am Free.
I Won’t Suffer, From You.
Self Destruction.
Was All That You Seem To Be.

Blood Knuckles on my Door.
Splinters All Across The Floor.
And I dose the cigarette,
Regretfully on the puddle.

This Was All a Goddamn Mistake.
I Can’t Live, Like This Anymore.

Fuck I Am Free.
I Won’t Suffer, From You.
Self Destruction.
Was All That You Seem To Be.

Forever……….
Ends Today……

Band Of the Week: Week 5

Jayreck/Dot Dot Curve :)/Scene Kidz


These Guys are the upcoming Crunkcore music, and they are my buddies, funny as shit.
Check Them All Out,
Jayreck makes crazy beats, some really cool songs, he's really technotron
Dot Dot Curve is A Crazy Mothafucka who just released an album call Tillthewheelsfalloff
Scene Kidz is a joint thing between Jayreck, DDC and Envy and they aren't as good, but i enjoy them.

Spin All Traxxx By DDC, Jayreck only has two, and DAMN by SK ft. Brokencyde.

urgh..

Break was fucking wonderful, like seriously, i miss summer so much now.
i have a report due on the 7th and seriously i don't even remember what it's about.
wait yes i do american system shit for history. But I Hope All You'res Was Wonderful.

Happy New Year! 2009!

Holy Shizznat like I'm So Excited For Music This Year, you have no idea.
so many bands and so many new records. I'm seriously pumped.
some shows are happening for me this year, Warped Tour is Going To Be Insane
I'm Look Forward to seeing DDC and BC13 oh and Isles and Glaciers is going to be insane.

Band Of The Week Is Emarosa they are the shit.
Songs of The Week Is Monster Inside Me - Brokencyde

Love You Bye.