if i could take it all
and put it in reverse,
i'd take back the lies that i said,
words i regret,
tears coming down like sweat
face is wet,
heart lies in a state of undetermined
is it over yet?
are we done or are there gonna
be shards of what went wrong?
this is too long i feel so isolated
frozen in a time of where i feel like shit
what's withholding me?
why do i fuck up?
it's the cost of love
i guess.
the stress i put on myself
will bury me, until i look like someone else.
through and through again?
this cycle will never end.
i want you, i love you more than a friend
time that take to heal,
will continue like a car's spinning wheels
not moving though.
in this rotation till she chooses to forgive or cut me out
i'm gonna stand with my head down
a lie i deviesd to keep her,
so scared that i would be alone.
i don't know.
i don't care.
i miss her, i miss her here.
i wish that i could take back
any single doubt,
but even if we repaired it,
it would never be the same
she'll think i'm playing the same game.
lies and deceit aren't apart of me.
just a mistake i keep locked up.
damn she was the only one i wasnted to spend my time
press my luck, be with past when we grew up.
but i guess i fucked up.