Listening: Relativity - Emarosa,
Read: All Quiet on The Western Front.
So i'm running on 2 hours of sleep and a 2 liter of mtn dew, and random other thing keep me awake, and i feel like i've been hit by a train, but i'm just chillin here, feeling like death, hahaha, but hmmm on my mind? oh, Relativity by Emarosa, wonderful album, go pick it up or illegally download it, (we all have limewire so duhh) and i'm done with the book i had to read for English, which is probably a "boring" novel, but people have to open their eyes to everything in life or it will just slip by, and you'll miss it. Continuing, this book is spectacular, and i know in school, it seems forced, but i took a day off to read it and write a report (which i prob screwed up) and it is a very well written book, i enjoyed actually going over it and feeling the experiences shared in the book, it compares to nowadays problems to me, "We are a lost generation" it seems to me that not just anyone taken in a war, or a mugging or a crime is the same to someone who commits suicide in our own neighborhood, people are in fact lost. I support groups like twhola and invisible children for this reason: We are human, not super beings who are above feelings, we can hurt, it's just alot of us slap on that fake smile every morning and no one notices, but i'm the kind of guy who notices, and I'm here for people who are hurt and lost, that;s just me and my bigg heart (thanks jesus, make things more difficult for me)
love love love
Wednesday, February 25, 2009
Monday, February 23, 2009
I had to feel farewell.
Listening: Maybe I'm Dreaming - Owl City.
Reading: All Quiet on the Western Front.
Today wasn't a bad day persay, but like it was an out day. Like i was seriously, out of my body, random emotions have been running through me, mainly annoyance. My friends are just urgghhhh lateley, I've been ripped off, ditched, ignored and a buncha other shit, but like that's one, my gf's sick and not only can't i see her, she's miserable, and i hate when my girly is sad =[ I'm in this mood, where my emotions will flow right out, if something is bothering me, i'll just say it and it sucks, because i hide things inside.
Shit, i can hardly concentrate.
Reading: All Quiet on the Western Front.
Today wasn't a bad day persay, but like it was an out day. Like i was seriously, out of my body, random emotions have been running through me, mainly annoyance. My friends are just urgghhhh lateley, I've been ripped off, ditched, ignored and a buncha other shit, but like that's one, my gf's sick and not only can't i see her, she's miserable, and i hate when my girly is sad =[ I'm in this mood, where my emotions will flow right out, if something is bothering me, i'll just say it and it sucks, because i hide things inside.
Shit, i can hardly concentrate.
Saturday, February 21, 2009
Happy Birthday To Me.
Watching: Unforgiveable (Youtube Video)
Listening: Isles & Glaciers, Dollface Divine, and Fancy Me Dead
Si it tis my birthday and i don't really know what to look forward too, it's just another stage of life, and just i don't know i guess. i'm exhausted from a show i saw about 5 hours ago with my lover and jimmy, and it's just, i look back from last year to this year and not much has gotten better on my part, no really progress just some downturns. i stopped doing everything athletic, found out how heartless people are, and basically how you're best friend can stab you in the back. Drama, Drama and more Drama. Being Major Heartbroken, recovering and ending up just fucking around, not knowing any direction i'm heading. (Even Though I Have a Gorgeous Girlfriend and I'm planning on being with her for as long as she'll have me) I just guess, that life has lost it's light for me, and i'll be looking for that way out, it's just something i've realized.
I feel like i'm missing out on something, but i don't know what it is. Life's just breezing by while I feel lost.
Listening: Isles & Glaciers, Dollface Divine, and Fancy Me Dead
Si it tis my birthday and i don't really know what to look forward too, it's just another stage of life, and just i don't know i guess. i'm exhausted from a show i saw about 5 hours ago with my lover and jimmy, and it's just, i look back from last year to this year and not much has gotten better on my part, no really progress just some downturns. i stopped doing everything athletic, found out how heartless people are, and basically how you're best friend can stab you in the back. Drama, Drama and more Drama. Being Major Heartbroken, recovering and ending up just fucking around, not knowing any direction i'm heading. (Even Though I Have a Gorgeous Girlfriend and I'm planning on being with her for as long as she'll have me) I just guess, that life has lost it's light for me, and i'll be looking for that way out, it's just something i've realized.
I feel like i'm missing out on something, but i don't know what it is. Life's just breezing by while I feel lost.
Thursday, February 19, 2009
BEATRICE (don't kill me xD)
Watching: Ace Ventura: Pet Detective and Happy Tree Friends
Listening: Translating The Name - Saosin
The Reason to Rebel Is To Make A Point, Yours - Me.
Friendships are strange, like forealls, I have alot of friends (Cursed I am my heart's toooo big) and I'm just a very friendly person, so I notice everything around my friends, drama drama drama, and basically when it's quiet people have nothing to do. I HATE today's AMERICAN PROPAGANDA, everything has to be a fucking soap opera, goddamn seriously people jsut like to start problems, can't we be happy wth our own business? Can't we just hang out, have fun and be teenagers? Spend the rest of you're young years happy? Like take this: you're staring at someone who used to be you're best friend and you "hate them" fuck you don't, you were their best friend for years! Personally, the worser thing is when a friend drifts off, and you just realize one day, they're gone, and someone's replaced you.
OMFG THE ISLES AND GLACIERS MUSIC IS SO FUCKING AMAZING, sorry i had to get that out.
hahaha no pictures tonite, i'm exhausted,
Listening: Translating The Name - Saosin
The Reason to Rebel Is To Make A Point, Yours - Me.
Friendships are strange, like forealls, I have alot of friends (Cursed I am my heart's toooo big) and I'm just a very friendly person, so I notice everything around my friends, drama drama drama, and basically when it's quiet people have nothing to do. I HATE today's AMERICAN PROPAGANDA, everything has to be a fucking soap opera, goddamn seriously people jsut like to start problems, can't we be happy wth our own business? Can't we just hang out, have fun and be teenagers? Spend the rest of you're young years happy? Like take this: you're staring at someone who used to be you're best friend and you "hate them" fuck you don't, you were their best friend for years! Personally, the worser thing is when a friend drifts off, and you just realize one day, they're gone, and someone's replaced you.
OMFG THE ISLES AND GLACIERS MUSIC IS SO FUCKING AMAZING, sorry i had to get that out.
hahaha no pictures tonite, i'm exhausted,
Wednesday, February 18, 2009
Paranoia?
Watching: Kyle Xy (lmfao)
Listening: Futures - Jimmy Eat World (Good Album For Those Seeking Comfort)
Reading: Atlas Shrugged - Ayn Rand (Creator of The Religon Objectivism)
So lately I've been noticing how paranoid people are getting about everything lately, me too i mean espcailly if it's someone i care about or have feelings for. usually, this would be the part where i tell everyone to calm the fuck down, but something is bothering me and i'm hating the paranoia about it, cuz like I'm SURE it's not true but it's bothering me, but whatever. Continuing. i'm watching my one friend get paranoid over his gf about guys, and her being friends with them, and that is a BIG mistake, guys and girls can be friends genius it's just when you feel like, a certain guy is after her, then you do something. Like Seriously, dude she's going to a concert with me and a friend of OURS get that through you're skull buddy.
Time To Bitch about something. Stupid Ex Fucking Girlfriends. wowww, dammit girl get this through you're head, there's no bad feelings or more than friend feelings, so i want to be your friend yes, but NOT if you're going to complain about me 24/7 fuck that shitttt. like foreal guys, I like to be friends with my ex's because alot tof we're a big part of my life or have taught me something about myself that has helped me grow but basically this one ex is fucking life, YOU STILL HAVEN'T QUIT SMOKING? Damn, I just made up with you yesterday and this is how you're gonna treat me? Boys and Girls, stay away from the crazy ones.
This Reminds Me of Summer when I was Carefree and Happy nothing bothered me.
This is my favorite time of the day, plus it reminds me of the worst day in my life so far.
lovelovelove
Listening: Futures - Jimmy Eat World (Good Album For Those Seeking Comfort)
Reading: Atlas Shrugged - Ayn Rand (Creator of The Religon Objectivism)
So lately I've been noticing how paranoid people are getting about everything lately, me too i mean espcailly if it's someone i care about or have feelings for. usually, this would be the part where i tell everyone to calm the fuck down, but something is bothering me and i'm hating the paranoia about it, cuz like I'm SURE it's not true but it's bothering me, but whatever. Continuing. i'm watching my one friend get paranoid over his gf about guys, and her being friends with them, and that is a BIG mistake, guys and girls can be friends genius it's just when you feel like, a certain guy is after her, then you do something. Like Seriously, dude she's going to a concert with me and a friend of OURS get that through you're skull buddy.
Time To Bitch about something. Stupid Ex Fucking Girlfriends. wowww, dammit girl get this through you're head, there's no bad feelings or more than friend feelings, so i want to be your friend yes, but NOT if you're going to complain about me 24/7 fuck that shitttt. like foreal guys, I like to be friends with my ex's because alot tof we're a big part of my life or have taught me something about myself that has helped me grow but basically this one ex is fucking life, YOU STILL HAVEN'T QUIT SMOKING? Damn, I just made up with you yesterday and this is how you're gonna treat me? Boys and Girls, stay away from the crazy ones.
Random Poem?
Wind Blows The Shadows.
Dancing In The Rain.
Off The Streetlights.
That reflects my image.
Moon is Visible,
My Smoke Invisible.
As The Light Wanes
Into Another Day.
---Me
Picture Time!
This Reminds Me of Summer when I was Carefree and Happy nothing bothered me.
This is my favorite time of the day, plus it reminds me of the worst day in my life so far.
lovelovelove
Tuesday, February 17, 2009
Life Will Come Together?
Watching: Biggest Loser Xd (or watched)
Listening: Plans - Death Cab For Cutie.
I HATE people being heated, espcially my MOM, my sisters are the devils children and basically Grace hit Lauren and that's that. BUT my mom decides to flip on me and turn off the computer when i'm in the middle of a conversation, basically anger is a disease, don't let it spread.
So My Girlfriend in a poem/rant (idc) Asked a question, "When Will Life Come Together?"
and i basically sat down and deciphered this into my own thoughts. My religon claims (which i believe in my heart and soul) that Christ will bring you're life together, that's wonderful right? Yeah Eternal Life I Want That. BUT Continuing on My Rant of the Day, I don't want my life to come together, until i die of course and be saved, but i don't want, the "perfect life" I don't want everything laid out for me, i don't like making plans on this date and that, i love chaotic places, i like jumping nto the unknown, i love randomness, if i could go randomly fly somewhere(SAN FRANSICO) right now, i would, i love being insecure, because that's my most secure place. Basically, I Don't Want A Future, I Want To Build My Own
They say, that you can see into someone's soul threw they're eyes,
Can You See Into Mine, Can I See Into Yours? I Wish I Could.
People Mask their real selves for many reasons, but if you mask yourself, who will know the real you? maybe you won't even recognize yourself.
lovelovelove
Listening: Plans - Death Cab For Cutie.
I HATE people being heated, espcially my MOM, my sisters are the devils children and basically Grace hit Lauren and that's that. BUT my mom decides to flip on me and turn off the computer when i'm in the middle of a conversation, basically anger is a disease, don't let it spread.
So My Girlfriend in a poem/rant (idc) Asked a question, "When Will Life Come Together?"
and i basically sat down and deciphered this into my own thoughts. My religon claims (which i believe in my heart and soul) that Christ will bring you're life together, that's wonderful right? Yeah Eternal Life I Want That. BUT Continuing on My Rant of the Day, I don't want my life to come together, until i die of course and be saved, but i don't want, the "perfect life" I don't want everything laid out for me, i don't like making plans on this date and that, i love chaotic places, i like jumping nto the unknown, i love randomness, if i could go randomly fly somewhere(SAN FRANSICO) right now, i would, i love being insecure, because that's my most secure place. Basically, I Don't Want A Future, I Want To Build My Own
They say, that you can see into someone's soul threw they're eyes,
Can You See Into Mine, Can I See Into Yours? I Wish I Could.
People Mask their real selves for many reasons, but if you mask yourself, who will know the real you? maybe you won't even recognize yourself.
lovelovelove
Monday, February 16, 2009
Baby, Just Ask Once More.
Watching: Handcock (yes the will smith movie) and Mitchell Davis
Listening: Crystal Castles - Crystal Castles, This Musicbox in te shape of a basset hound
It's Funny, How People Strive To Be Happy, I mean i'm not one to talk, becasue that's human nature, but seriously, i'm looking at these past few weeks and like, i lead two girls on, (well not purposely,) because i wanted to see if they were right for me, and unfortanetly they weren't. I started talking to my ex and i absolutley FUCKED that up, because who am I? Jake Dahl, the target of heartbreakers, but good things eventually come, and she did =] 2/8/09
I look around my absolutely trashed basement, and see all the storage from when we moved here 6 years ago. There's my acoustic, it's supposed to be 12-strings but yeah it's only 5, don't ask, i don't know. There's this music box, in the shape of my old dog, that guy was the shit =]
I realize, that i'm probably not going far from here as i age, personally i want to move into main town CBG or PGH just because i love the city.
Picture Time
This Describes My Feelings Right Now.
What Do You Want, A Cookie? Get Out My Face Boy.
I LOVE This Movie =p
Listening: Crystal Castles - Crystal Castles, This Musicbox in te shape of a basset hound
It's Funny, How People Strive To Be Happy, I mean i'm not one to talk, becasue that's human nature, but seriously, i'm looking at these past few weeks and like, i lead two girls on, (well not purposely,) because i wanted to see if they were right for me, and unfortanetly they weren't. I started talking to my ex and i absolutley FUCKED that up, because who am I? Jake Dahl, the target of heartbreakers, but good things eventually come, and she did =] 2/8/09
I look around my absolutely trashed basement, and see all the storage from when we moved here 6 years ago. There's my acoustic, it's supposed to be 12-strings but yeah it's only 5, don't ask, i don't know. There's this music box, in the shape of my old dog, that guy was the shit =]
I realize, that i'm probably not going far from here as i age, personally i want to move into main town CBG or PGH just because i love the city.
Picture Time
This Describes My Feelings Right Now.
What Do You Want, A Cookie? Get Out My Face Boy.
I LOVE This Movie =p
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