Exhaustion

Listening: Relativity - Emarosa,
Read: All Quiet on The Western Front.


So i'm running on 2 hours of sleep and a 2 liter of mtn dew, and random other thing keep me awake, and i feel like i've been hit by a train, but i'm just chillin here, feeling like death, hahaha, but hmmm on my mind? oh, Relativity by Emarosa, wonderful album, go pick it up or illegally download it, (we all have limewire so duhh) and i'm done with the book i had to read for English, which is probably a "boring" novel, but people have to open their eyes to everything in life or it will just slip by, and you'll miss it. Continuing, this book is spectacular, and i know in school, it seems forced, but i took a day off to read it and write a report (which i prob screwed up) and it is a very well written book, i enjoyed actually going over it and feeling the experiences shared in the book, it compares to nowadays problems to me, "We are a lost generation" it seems to me that not just anyone taken in a war, or a mugging or a crime is the same to someone who commits suicide in our own neighborhood, people are in fact lost. I support groups like twhola and invisible children for this reason: We are human, not super beings who are above feelings, we can hurt, it's just alot of us slap on that fake smile every morning and no one notices, but i'm the kind of guy who notices, and I'm here for people who are hurt and lost, that;s just me and my bigg heart (thanks jesus, make things more difficult for me)

love love love

I had to feel farewell.

Listening: Maybe I'm Dreaming - Owl City.
Reading: All Quiet on the Western Front.


Today wasn't a bad day persay, but like it was an out day. Like i was seriously, out of my body, random emotions have been running through me, mainly annoyance. My friends are just urgghhhh lateley, I've been ripped off, ditched, ignored and a buncha other shit, but like that's one, my gf's sick and not only can't i see her, she's miserable, and i hate when my girly is sad =[ I'm in this mood, where my emotions will flow right out, if something is bothering me, i'll just say it and it sucks, because i hide things inside.

Shit, i can hardly concentrate.

Happy Birthday To Me.

Watching: Unforgiveable (Youtube Video)
Listening: Isles & Glaciers, Dollface Divine, and Fancy Me Dead

Si it tis my birthday and i don't really know what to look forward too, it's just another stage of life, and just i don't know i guess. i'm exhausted from a show i saw about 5 hours ago with my lover and jimmy, and it's just, i look back from last year to this year and not much has gotten better on my part, no really progress just some downturns. i stopped doing everything athletic, found out how heartless people are, and basically how you're best friend can stab you in the back. Drama, Drama and more Drama. Being Major Heartbroken, recovering and ending up just fucking around, not knowing any direction i'm heading. (Even Though I Have a Gorgeous Girlfriend and I'm planning on being with her for as long as she'll have me) I just guess, that life has lost it's light for me, and i'll be looking for that way out, it's just something i've realized.



I feel like i'm missing out on something, but i don't know what it is. Life's just breezing by while I feel lost.

BEATRICE (don't kill me xD)

Watching: Ace Ventura: Pet Detective and Happy Tree Friends
Listening: Translating The Name - Saosin







The Reason to Rebel Is To Make A Point, Yours - Me.

Friendships are strange, like forealls, I have alot of friends (Cursed I am my heart's toooo big) and I'm just a very friendly person, so I notice everything around my friends, drama drama drama, and basically when it's quiet people have nothing to do. I HATE today's AMERICAN PROPAGANDA, everything has to be a fucking soap opera, goddamn seriously people jsut like to start problems, can't we be happy wth our own business? Can't we just hang out, have fun and be teenagers? Spend the rest of you're young years happy? Like take this: you're staring at someone who used to be you're best friend and you "hate them" fuck you don't, you were their best friend for years! Personally, the worser thing is when a friend drifts off, and you just realize one day, they're gone, and someone's replaced you.

OMFG THE ISLES AND GLACIERS MUSIC IS SO FUCKING AMAZING, sorry i had to get that out.


hahaha no pictures tonite, i'm exhausted,

Paranoia?

Watching: Kyle Xy (lmfao)
Listening: Futures - Jimmy Eat World (Good Album For Those Seeking Comfort)
Reading: Atlas Shrugged - Ayn Rand (Creator of The Religon Objectivism)



So lately I've been noticing how paranoid people are getting about everything lately, me too i mean espcailly if it's someone i care about or have feelings for. usually, this would be the part where i tell everyone to calm the fuck down, but something is bothering me and i'm hating the paranoia about it, cuz like I'm SURE it's not true but it's bothering me, but whatever. Continuing. i'm watching my one friend get paranoid over his gf about guys, and her being friends with them, and that is a BIG mistake, guys and girls can be friends genius it's just when you feel like, a certain guy is after her, then you do something. Like Seriously, dude she's going to a concert with me and a friend of OURS get that through you're skull buddy.


Time To Bitch about something. Stupid Ex Fucking Girlfriends. wowww, dammit girl get this through you're head, there's no bad feelings or more than friend feelings, so i want to be your friend yes, but NOT if you're going to complain about me 24/7 fuck that shitttt. like foreal guys, I like to be friends with my ex's because alot tof we're a big part of my life or have taught me something about myself that has helped me grow but basically this one ex is fucking life, YOU STILL HAVEN'T QUIT SMOKING? Damn, I just made up with you yesterday and this is how you're gonna treat me? Boys and Girls, stay away from the crazy ones.

Random Poem?

Wind Blows The Shadows.
Dancing In The Rain.
Off The Streetlights.
That reflects my image.
Moon is Visible,
My Smoke Invisible.
As The Light Wanes
Into Another Day.

---Me


Picture Time!

This Reminds Me of Summer when I was Carefree and Happy nothing bothered me.



This is my favorite time of the day, plus it reminds me of the worst day in my life so far.



lovelovelove

Life Will Come Together?

Watching: Biggest Loser Xd (or watched)
Listening: Plans - Death Cab For Cutie.

I HATE people being heated, espcially my MOM, my sisters are the devils children and basically Grace hit Lauren and that's that. BUT my mom decides to flip on me and turn off the computer when i'm in the middle of a conversation, basically anger is a disease, don't let it spread.

So My Girlfriend in a poem/rant (idc) Asked a question, "When Will Life Come Together?"
and i basically sat down and deciphered this into my own thoughts. My religon claims (which i believe in my heart and soul) that Christ will bring you're life together, that's wonderful right? Yeah Eternal Life I Want That. BUT Continuing on My Rant of the Day, I don't want my life to come together, until i die of course and be saved, but i don't want, the "perfect life" I don't want everything laid out for me, i don't like making plans on this date and that, i love chaotic places, i like jumping nto the unknown, i love randomness, if i could go randomly fly somewhere(SAN FRANSICO) right now, i would, i love being insecure, because that's my most secure place. Basically, I Don't Want A Future, I Want To Build My Own




They say, that you can see into someone's soul threw they're eyes,
Can You See Into Mine, Can I See Into Yours? I Wish I Could.



People Mask their real selves for many reasons, but if you mask yourself, who will know the real you? maybe you won't even recognize yourself.



lovelovelove

Baby, Just Ask Once More.

Watching: Handcock (yes the will smith movie) and Mitchell Davis
Listening: Crystal Castles - Crystal Castles, This Musicbox in te shape of a basset hound

It's Funny, How People Strive To Be Happy, I mean i'm not one to talk, becasue that's human nature, but seriously, i'm looking at these past few weeks and like, i lead two girls on, (well not purposely,) because i wanted to see if they were right for me, and unfortanetly they weren't. I started talking to my ex and i absolutley FUCKED that up, because who am I? Jake Dahl, the target of heartbreakers, but good things eventually come, and she did =] 2/8/09

I look around my absolutely trashed basement, and see all the storage from when we moved here 6 years ago. There's my acoustic, it's supposed to be 12-strings but yeah it's only 5, don't ask, i don't know. There's this music box, in the shape of my old dog, that guy was the shit =]

I realize, that i'm probably not going far from here as i age, personally i want to move into main town CBG or PGH just because i love the city.

Picture Time



This Describes My Feelings Right Now.



What Do You Want, A Cookie? Get Out My Face Boy.
I LOVE This Movie =p

All The Worlds A Stage - William Shakespeare

Fuckin Foreaallzz, Time For A Serious Blog, idk even know what to be serious about, oh! take chances is a good one for right now. I took a chance, and unfortanetly threw someone away (Check Tough Thoughts and Forget Me Knots) and i'm the happiest i've been in months, wow, greatest stupid idea (GO BROKENCYDE CONCERT) oh yeah, another one, Life Is Precious, don't ever forget, GOD given gift, my loves, and you think what the fuck ever? NO i have friends who aren't going to live past fucking 20! and you're COMPLAINING about YOU'RE LITTLE DRAMA? fuck that, but that also ties in the title, "All The Worlds A Stage" - William Shakespeare, what comforts me is that all the world is is a stage, and you WILL move on to the next life, (Yes I Am Christian) I'm not the, Upmost follower of God, but i do however know my stance. Oh Yeah, I'm Going for this one. My Relationship View: As Long As They're Happy, I'm Doing My Job. After all this shit with her and herr and herrr and well you get it, ii've just gotten fucked up, and that's because my perception was small, and now it's large, when you are the type of person who takes in everything like me, you get to understand yourself and the world better, best relationship view for me is, Do The Best Job You Can, like seriously some relationships are just about sex, some are so prude that you're just like ohkayyy. but ferreal, bringing back my other point, your job in a relationship is to make you're other happy, not just yourself, it's about the BOTH of you, and the way you can achieve happiness is treating them like they deserve, which i'm usuing in my relationship now, oh and fereal if you're young like me (15 going on 16) stop with the bullshit of, Is this My True Love? Fuck that, you should date to have a good time, BUT if you doooo happen to fall in love, Lucky You =]

Picture Time



This Absolutely Describes My Feelings Right Now, well, that plus a cute girl holding a penguin xD
likeeeee thisss



Well Not A 5 Year Old, More Like My Adorable Girlfriend.

Almost Forgot, I Know This Isn't My Music Blog, but If You'd Like, a better understanding of my thoughts, listen to Lydia - Illuminate, The Receiving End Of Sirens - The Earth Sings Mi FA Mi and Circa Survive - Juturna. I Seriously Get ALOT of Inspiration From These Albums.

Well, Time To Smoke, (Cigarettes) Don't Start, I HATE Smoking.

love love love

Don't You Say That I've Gone Crazy.....

So, Valentines Day Yesterday, Slept in, got lindsay some stuff (even though we HATE vday) and got free burger king =] (yay Josh, Kevin and My Lovely Girl) and basically watched mitchel davis all day, made my brother look sexy

Here's A Pic. (Actually Mutliple Pics.)

Basically that sexy ass mothafucka is my creation ^^^^

OH yeah i hafta show you what i got my gf!






Yeah That Gold Chain? ALL ME BABY =]] ^^^^

But Forealz, my day got ruined in an instant, someone very dear to me is very sick and she has always been there for me, and I want all you're prayers to go to her, and no i'm not saying who she is because she'll kill me, but hun, you are loved, and in my thoughts.

love love love.

You're A Bad Influence

I said that and twenty shots and a couple beers later, here i am xD thank you loverbitch/pengybaby/lindsay =]<3 hahahaha also i'm being hit on a gay guy who wants my dick and i'm being teased with my gf's gorgeousness, UNFAIR =/ Well, i want a smoke, maybe some bedtime, IT's VALENTINES DAY EVERYONE, i got you things lindsay, a necklace, an army hat and a owl, yes, i'm telling you now because you won't read this xD

12:26 AM xD

SO Like wowoww forrealz, obi one kenobi, WTF? oh yeah star wars cartoon movie nigguhs? hahaha fuck yes, i'mma a loser, damn, whose crazy, me GET SILLY, haha go carson fox. LARGE FRIES MOTHAFUCKA, yes lindsay i brought you're work and dane cook together, welll, no he did, but i <3 you girlyyfriend, go be drunk without me xD me + shorts plus basement = cold. LIL WAYNE? yes fucking lil wayne, weezy f. baby, if i was homo, i would want you're dick. i already have a rapper name so fuck you're couches i am JKIZZLE and forrealls, my nizzles you can't match that, because i am BLACK AS SNOW, FUCK YES =]

I Posted This For My PenguinBaby =]

This, This Feeling,
I Jumped, At The Slightest Of Hope.
This Twinge In My Heart, Reminds Me Of Old.
When Did Life Get Better, Can't Blame The Weather
It's Terrible, Yet Beautiful,
I'll Watch The Rain Fall, While Thinking
Of You.What Me and You Could Do, Could Be.
I'm Falling, I'm Falling.

Penguins =]]

Just To Let You Know, I'm Thinking About You =]
haha you're my penguin baby and yes you're the one with the mohawk.
i love you're kisses and you smile and everything else. =]]]

lovelovelove.

New Blogspot - Music

jkizzlefoshizzle.blogspot.com
that's my music blog, i'm just gonna be random on here.

Tough Thoughts and Forget Me Knots

Cigarette Smoke Rolls down my breath as i sit on my roof on a late saturday night. Damn, I hate Newports, Flick the Square off my roof, and lay down starring out onto a cloudy sky. Thinking of you, i'm split, part of me loves the life i lead without you, but then again i miss everything we had. There are two kinds of people in this world. Those Who Act and Those Who Regret Not Acting. I've been on both sides of that and i have no clue which person i am. Nothing Solves Anything, Like for instance, the alcoholic drinks to keep bad thoughts away, yet when they sober up the issue is still there. 8 months have changed me alot, and seriously, i do regret being with you for that period of time, and i miss you and love you very much. Staring out into the dreary night which is my favorite time, since i live for the night, these thoughts run through my head till i can't take it anymore. Light Up another Newport, drag, exhale, calm. Thoughts Swirl Down and I Have My Answer. Whatever you decide is best, and i know that, but i want you to pick me, i want to hold you and love you again. Flick my Cigarette Off and go inside, one of our songs is on the radio, "I Miss You - Blink-182" Shit, This Sucks, Waiting, but Paitence is My Vurtue, I'm Different, I'm Not The Scared Person I Was Before. Our conversations earlier where wonderful, i forgot you had left me, but then it all comes back and pain rushes in. I lay down in bed, knowing i love you, and that i'm done being scared.

Fuck Profile Editor 2.0

Like Seriously, I Liked The Old Profile Themes So Much Better Liek for Fucking Real This Shit Is Pissing Me Off, Fuck You Myspace. like omfg.

Talkin To Rockstar (APEPC)

So, I'mma Apparently A Good Beginner =]]
YAY and i'mma downloading Adobe Audition 3 So I Can Rock My Shizz =]
Excited Much?
YES

So Talked To J Spizzy

DDC :) is goin on tour and the cool part about this is that after the tour, JayReck (Scene Kidz, Solo Shit and Producer of Tillthewheelsfalloff and other DDC song) and J Spizzy (Dropping A Popped Locket) are joining Dot Dot Curve so it'll be like a 3 Person Group? Kickass Yes.

I am The Boy Who Sets You're Girl On Fire.

Hmmm. What Have I Been Listening To Lately?

Rock Spectacle - Barenaked Ladies (Classic Ninety's Canadian Rock)
Transalanticism - Death Cab For Cutie (Such an Amazing Band)
Tha Carter III (AGAIN) - Lil Wayne (Weezy is muy Fav.)
Wires... - A Skylit Drive (The Skylit Drive Obsession Hasn't Reached Me, But They're Good)
Thr33 Rings - T-Pain (T-Pain is muy 2nd Fav)
Downtown Battle Mountain - Dance Gavin Dance (Love Johnny Craig)

Super BOWL VICTORY NIGGUH!

Oh Fuck Yeah, Steelers Win It. 27-23. and damn i was biting my nails all through-out it, i was like swearing out loud, drinking, eating chips the whole she-bang and seriously? Santinio Holmes and fucking James Harrison oh yeah. Well Nite People Lovely Day =]

Pre-Steelers Blog

Okay, Steelers, Super Bowl in Like 3 1/2 Hours Mayne!!
Get Hyphy For This SHIT, If They Don't Win I'll Be So Angry =/
But Yeah Go Steelers