dear world, i am departed.

not actually dead, nor will i be for a time.
i'm just leaving for two weeks.
so sinora

ehhh ha

ehhh well it's been a bit since i had a meaningful blog, but that's just because i'd rather use my mind sober. had another crunk night, refused today, just need a relaxing one, though i do love shelbakins and princess matty (lmfao) and uncle gio it's just today i felt like being sober.







I'm really digging this picture, it just makes me think of summer so well.
I have a couple others on my other blog (inallthingsbeautiful.blogspot.com)


since my ipod is hell knows where i've been only listening to the radio and music on my computer and it's annoying as fuck.
I'm missing the last night of st.pats, (like i really attended the first two, i just got plastered haha)
well there's always tommorrow!

listening: The Dear Hunter - Acts I & II

Score!

got obliderated last night (ha it was epic) drove around, got some bud, got a bottle of calico, sat in a random girls house from mcdonald (my ex was creepin AH) and got TRASHED.

talking to phatj(yesbc13) and we're smokin at warped.
SCORE

leavin for st.pats

just 4 more days

today was weird, i woke up with a HACK and was spitting straight mucus, and then lazed around all day. played some pokemon (kara's fault) watched house all afternoon (I FUCKING LOVE HOUSE) did nothing else really, cleaned my room, my brother was out more than me? (weird) talked to my baby alllllllll day <3 only four more days till i see her =]

listening: juturna - circa survive
watching: aladin xD

real.

i hafta get something out, seriously people, if you don't like me, don't talk to me, don't make me think you're my friend because seriously it's a waste of yours and my time, tell me shit straight up, i'm not a child i can take it and if i'm really cocky? deal, but i'm fucking not. i'm content with my self and if you aren't stop taking hits on me, it's fucking bullshit and i'm tired of fakes, i'm real, sorry.

woke up, at like 5:32 this morning, still in my twilight gabbed a lipton green tea and woke up with it in my bed wonder what the fuck?
left round 2, that bullshit with the bong is still going on so stayed away from dugan and bonus and cory and niki.
chilled with nick kov and travis for a bit, they left (assholes)
stuck with twinkie and mary and deven
met up with nose and jay, freestyled.
what the fuck is up with ex's and fucking with you.
it's fuckign annoying as shit
i just wanna be with my babygirl
what the fuck is going on?
goddamn haha
i love my kara <3 so much

listening: lover, the lord has left us - TSOAF
reading: nothing
watching: something we rented, not sure yet

today, what have i done?

woke up at 12:04, climb on the roof in gym shorts (my roof is right out my room window) lit a cigarette, wondered about the day. went downstairs, talked it out with my dad, the rest of my family was at kennywood, ditched, great.
stay on the computer till around 3 something, my dad took me out to cbg,
chilled with grizzno,
chilled with the cbgk (ew)
chilled wth matty<3 and kaylah <3
and jerry and alex and DJ
=]
got drven home =]


listening: wiz khalifa-flight school
reading: the city of ember
watching: the dark knight

ehhhhhh today wasn't so great.
all i gotta say summer ain't turning out so cool

New Blog!

I created a new blog, mainly for artistic use, because i want to let myself out more artistically.
the link is -> inallthingsbeautiful.blogspot.com, i'll update you on here when i make something new

MY first day of summer

Goddamn, Today has been, ehhh.
I was woken up at 8:26 (i specifically remember) by my brother telling me we were riding down to my dad's (old remember, he's a douche bag alcoholic and my uncle fired him) work, so i seriously, ran out of my house, bare foot, lit a cigarette, and ran, it's the fucking first day of summer, i'm not dealing with this shit.
i realize, i'm not going to have a great summer if i keep running, (and my feet hurt)
i wanna see my baby, i wanna party, i wanna have fun.
So I come back, only to confront my mom and tell her i don't wanna go, and present a reasonable proposition to her, only to be refused.
I flip shit...
my dad comes in grabs me, shoves me into a wall, i match his grip
(Dad)"Don't talk to your mother like that!"
(Me)"I don't care!"
"this is your fault!"
(Dad)"My fault?"
(Me)"yes it's yours, your a piece of shit father!"
(My Mom)"Let Go Of Each Other"
(I've Collasped, crying, my dad is fucking big)
(Dad) I'll Never Forgive You, No One Has Ever Talked To Me Like That"
"I'll Never Forgive You"
then i talk to my mom for fifteen minutes
and we leave for 10 fucking hours.
and i just got back
Today Was the worst first day of summer.

i'm scared right now, well absolutely terrified.
this could be the end, but your the best thing that has ever happened to me.

Proxies Are Bomb

ha haven't done this in a while, =p
bloggin from school?
shittt mayne ahahaha.
well i'm exhausted and since it's the last full day this year
i thought i'd say farwell to this year while i can, i grew so much this year
and i thank everyone for that.

i don't know what's gonna go on for the rest of today. just chillin

listening: circa survive

Califone, I Love You, But Your Singing Sinatra Again

I LOVE this SONG ^

hahah i also loved today, school should be THIS easy everyday
watch movies and take easy quizes, forrealz i'mma fucking find a retarded school =p

Today I Decided To Make Another Mixtape,
Well Actually Yesterday I Did.
but after rapping with jarell and storme today i thimnk i'mma do it
and spittin for kookie.
in dedication i tink i'mma name the mixtape "JeepCruis'n"


listening: Dedication 2 & 3 - Weezy F Baby; Avalon - Anthony Green
watching: The Patriot

Looking Back For Once

Wow i've just pondered how i've grown over the year, and i'm proud of myself, i'm learning to let go of things i didn't know i could, i'm just growing up i guess haha,
just all this shit i've went through all this year drives me insane, and makes me exstatic at the same time, i don't know, at the end of it all, i am content. I just hope this summer will be just as wonderful

I don't understand

i feel like i've screwed up something.
just the way you acted to me tonite, i feel as if i did something wrong
it was awkward, it's NEVER awkward, this is gonna bother me =/
jeez i need to see you soon, my dad needs to get his truck so this can happen =]

day was iight,
school was empty, seniors are gone,
blew off most of my classes.
went crusin with jenkins, burns and bonus (again haha)
ended up at the new cyber cafe
came off, ate,
recorded
had the awkward coversation, which worries me.
need a cigarette, so i'm out

listening: wiz khalifa - flight school
watching: starsky + hutch

Chillin, Chillin

So another day another dollar i guess.
if i had a dollar for everyday i lived i still wouldn't have much
which reminds me i need a job,
days are passing by like sand through and hourglass.
i miss her terribly =/ i can't wait to see her in TWO WEEKS =]
i have no clue what we're gonna do, i just wanna be wih her.
my brother got a phone, and i still don't have one. WTF?
i mean c'mon i'm pissedd.
i'm also pissed about my dad being home, seriously, i'm so angry at him and what he's done.
Like seriously, if your gonna wasted your life away getting wasted and sleeping go for it.
I've found myself smoking weed more than drinking as a result.
Pens got obliderated, last night, (thanks kara, rub it in)
eric can't watch anymore =p BAD OMEN
Carson's Party, iight, i mean jen, cort and raven dragged me out to go somewhere else, got a lil stoned and came back and rapped for everyone and it was beast.
i don't know what to do with myself right now.
i hate this feeling.

They Be On My Stick, But I'm Not Harry Potter

Damn I Love Blunt Cruisin with Cory Burns and Jason Bonus.^^^









Faygo Twist, WOW



Jesus, Mr. Cap Is LEAVING =///
I'm SO JEALOUS THAT THEY DID THE JAGGERZ URGH
















MRCAP =//^^^^

best middle school band teacher ever.

hahah he's the shit


Did I Tell you, how much i miss my baby girl??
Very MUCH, i mean it seems like i love her more everyday. =]


Listening: Wiz Khalifa - Flight School; Mew - Discography; Lil Wayne - Dedication 2
Watching: The Pens, Fail.

With Great Maturity Comes...?

so i realized today, that the more mature i get, the more boring life gets.
doing yard work? for once? ahahaha wow, i am just becoming a difference.
i'm still a bit injured about my father, he was moved to a local hospital (according to my mother, again) from West Virginia. My Uncle, His Parter in their business, fired him, so there goes my raise in allowance, well Mike will give me a job down there.
i realize day after day, how much important your becoming to me, and how much i'm falling for you, and how much i want to be with you, and i miss you so much.
I NEED A MOTHERFUCKING IPOD WITH MORE SPACE AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH =/
i ALSO need 200$ to record this new ep.
i also need some weed in my pipe, this shit with my dad is pissing me off.

Listening: Mew - Frengers
Watching: House

Darling, I Can't Control My Thoughts.

Today was an alrite day,
but not at the same time.

i'm okay, now broken ribs, no fractures.
My dentals shit is great.
I'm getting my hair all spiffy

BUT

My dad is an alcoholic, and i just found out.
My girlfriend is depressed and i don't know why.
and i wanna make her happy, so much, but right now i don't know how
i know i won't turn out like nathan or her dad, i just wanna be the best boyfriend ever.

i've been writing more acoustic stuff, for Brandon Christian and I to do together, idk when we're getting together.


Listening: Mew - Frengers (ITS THE SHIT)
Watching: Family Guy
Reading: The City of Ember?